missing.

i looked like i am happy. yes, sometimes. but i'm faking it.
i don't want my beloveds to be worrying about me. i hate to hear sighs from my beloveds. i always wish my beloveds are happy and no worries. i wish i can lightened the burdens of my beloveds. but, sometimes, vice verse occur, isn't it?

who loves to look the people who they love sighing and complaining all the time?
who likes to be a burden?
who adores to be hated?
none of us did. Right?

i've just recovered from my fever and flu. just a little left.
i miss my mom so much. i realised that i can't meet her till next summer. how i miss her.
too lot.

ibu,

akak terlampau sayangkan ibu.

akak minta maaf ye.

akak rindu ibu sangat2.

u will be beside me whenever i need you. 

u will love me whatever i did to you.

u will never leave me. i know. 

i am sorry to hurt you, i miss you so lot.

ntah (",)

hey! i baru saja habis masak! bangga! haha. kenyang. lolx. bosan sekarang ni. masa ni je la ko boleh bosan zulaikha nadia oi! after this, kalau dah mula kelas tu, jangan harap lah ko boleh bersenang-lenang goyang kaki semua tu. haha

sebenarnya, aku kebosanan yang teramat sangat. en. froggy prince ada camping. nak calling-calling, takut ganggu. nak skyping, hampeh la kan? macam lah dia bawa segala laptop masuk hutan. apa lah ko ni nadia. apa kes kan? ;p

tomorrow, i mean, my current time, is 9.40 pm, 30 september, so TOMORROW which is 1 OCTOBER, is my dearest youngest brother's birthday.

adik, happy birthday yer! akak akan call adik lewat sikit taw, sebab takde kredit sekarang. so pagi esok, akak akan beli topup. sweet 14 my dear. grow stronger, healthier, smarter. be a good son to ibu and abah okay? you are the only son! no one else. so jangan main-main. jangan sesekali lukakan hati ibu dan abah. akak tahu adik sangat faham kan? ingat taw! nak hadiah? nanti akak bagi yer. tapi next year la ea. ;p

aku sangat sayangkan adik aku yang sorang ni. may Allah bless you always.

i think da cukup kowt. tiba-tiba rasa mengantuk. elok lah sangat, lepas makan, tidur! haha. tapi seriously, mengantuk sangat. that's all lovely, see you again. bubbye.