Friday, March 26, 2010

Apa2 je La.. :P

ak xfhm la napa ada pompuan yang sanggup gado ngan pompuan laen sbbkn lelaki.. yg lagi terok kalau dai gado ngan kwn2 dia,.. ak xley nsk terima satu benda nie... weyh.. tolong la... ak taw la mmg lelaki semakin berkurang kat dunia nie, tp tue bukanlah satu alasan korg nak gado ngan kwn2 sendiri... ak ley accept agi kalau dia straight forward ckp face-to-face yang dia suka guy tu... tapi lau yg jenis kutuk2 belakang, sebar cter yang xbenar, bermasam muka ntah ap sebab, nie mmg ak tak tahan... lau korang x puas hati ngan seseorg, g je la ckp dpn2... ni x, sebar dakyah... dakyah2 yg mengarut lak tu.. tolong la weyh... dorg nie xmalu ke gado sebab laki2?? pelik ak.. xrasa cm jatuh pride ke gado sbb GUYs??? pliz la... lau ye pon, xyah nk libatkan ak... ak xberminat pon ngan GUYs tu... not my taste.. lOlz :-D.. patutke dorg nie attack ak tanpa ak taw sb ap, " apahal ko kco ***************? dia da ad makwe okay..." tu ley accept agi.. dpn2.. yg belakang, " dia nie swuh bf ak break-up ngan ak.. dia mnt kat bf ak".. wth??? lau bf ko  ensem cm tom cruise bley kira arr.. lau btol2 tu bf dia xpe guk.. nie palsu semata-mata... and ak
  TAK PERNAH CAKAP 
sbegitu rupa.. ak xsanggup la tgk relationship org musnah sebab ak.. please... okay???

ak nie bknnye barang... bukan bola.. bukan boneka... bukannye baju... or ap2 la... tp ak nie seorang MANUSIA! yg punyai perasaan... yang ada emosi... ak bukannye bola yg korg bley tendang sesuka hati je... ak bukannye anak patung yang korg pelok tyyme korg syg dia, n tinggal entah mner2 bler korg xnk dia... ak nie bknnye baju yg korg pkei bler korg nk, buang bler da xnk...  ak bukannye trophy yg korg gilap bler rse nk, n biar bler korg xegt... ak bukannye kasut yang korg pkei kt kaki n bley wat ske suki korg je... at least kasut lagi berhati perut.. dia protect kaki org... ak bukannye satu objek yg korang ley pass2... weyh.. korg egt ak xde perasaan ke???!!  ske ati mulut korg je ckp ak nie org tu py, org tue plak ckp ak org nie py, org nie ckp ak nie ko py... ap nie!! ak ad PERASAAN... ak xpernah2 suka pon kat korg yang suke mengepass2 ak.. ak nie bknnye bley wat flow chart.. so pikir2 masak2 balik apa yang kter da bwat... then, bler korg nak, korg cari ak balik... korg egt ak ske korg wat cmnie kt ak ke?? ak rse xde sorg manusia pown yang akan gembira kalau diorang diperlakukan sedemikian... lau korg, org laen buat camtu, korrg ske ke???
lu pikir la sendiri 
(nabil's trademark...)
( xde kaitan ngan idop atau mati)

mls btol lau layan mood suwey cmnie... kasar gler bhsa yang ak guna tp ak terpakse guk... kegeraman yang terbuku di hati ini xdapat dibendung lagi... it needs to be out from my heart.. coz it doesn't have any more empty spaces for the 'kegeraman'.. i want my heart to be filled only with love, determination, and honesty... i don't want it to be ruined by the evil side... i just want to love everyone coz it is the true fact.. i don't hate people, perhaps.. coz hating somebody is really tiring... making you feel weak... don't hate people...hate their  actions... that's one advice from my former ustaz, Us fauzi in TGB... plus, it's stated in hadis, if u can'y correct their wrong by your power, action so the weakest way to prevent you from doin the same thing is to hate their deeds not the wrongdoers.. ini juga satu nasihat kepada diriku.... ak harap ak xkn benci kepada mereka-mereka ini...


stop pasal ak yang xbtol tue... skrg ak nk smbg cter sal ak maen masak2... hehe... yesterday, i had successfully made a chocolate cake... hee.. although, the appearance didn't look so nice, its taste can be accepted okay! haha... my mom said that's really good.. bangga~^^~  i uploaded their pictures for you to see and give comment about it... i was absolutely happy as my hard efforts paid off with the appetizing cake...

nk share ngan korg resepi mashed potato and gravy tu..

~niela set kfc yg ak wat utk family ak~ :P



Mashed Potatoes @ Kentang Putar
Bahan-bahannya:
8 - 10 biji kentang (Kupas kulit) dan potong dua
250gm butter
1 kotak kecil susu segar
serbuk lada hitam (ditumbuk halus)
serbuk lada sulah

Cara-caranya
1. Kentang di kupas dan di potong lebih kurang sama saiz. Masukkan dalam periuk dan rebus dengan air yang cukup-cukup menutup kentang. Rebus dlm 20minit.
2. Bila kentang cukup empuk, toskan air dan letakkan semula di atas api supaya lebihan air dapat dikeringkan. Alihkan dari atas api.
3. Masukkan sedikit butter dalam kentang dan leyek (butter tu ikut suka, nak letak lebih ke atau sikit..terpulang pada anda)
4. Season dengan lada sulah dan lada hitam. Jika nak pedas letak lebih.
5. Tuangkan susu dan lenyek lagi hingga rata. (susu ni pun letak ikut sesedap rasa..masuk sikit demi sekit) Susu akan buat mashed potatoes lebih gebu dan lemak.

Gravy @ Sos 
Bahan-bahannya:
1 labu bawang besar.
2 ulas bawang putih (ketuk dan chopped)
4 sudu butter
2 sudu tepung jagung
2 cube ayam maggie
lada hitam/sulah
2 cawan air

Cara-caranya
1. Cairkan butter dalam kuali. Tumis bawang. Biarkan dia caramelized. Kasi hangus-hangus sket.
2. Masukkan tepung jagung. Tumis sampai tepung warna coklat. Atau sampai warna gravy yang dikehendaki.
3. Masukkan air. Kacau sampai rata .
4. Pecahkan cube ayam tadi dan masukkan dalam kuah. Masukkan sekali lada hitam dan lada sulah secukup rasa.
5. Kalau kuah terlalu pekat. Tambah air.
6. Kacau rata. Tutup api. Masukkan kuah dalam blender. Blender sampai tak berketul. Hidangkan bersama mashed potatoes.

dpt from hanafzuan.blogspot.com... thank you ye sis... :)


~ nie lak puding roti tu~

~ kek chocolate~ ^^ ~



semalam, i went to my mom' office casual event.. it's held due to one of the staff will retire.. and the person is my mom's bestie.. i called her mak cik mun... she is Chinese Muslim... the event was held at a restaurant named Paradise Kiss.. we were served with the buttered prawns, two tomyams, mixed veges, sweet and sour eggs, and cashew nuts chicken... the rating for food is 4 out of 6.. and the service is 5 out of 6... but i really love the environment.. it is really romantic~ lau candle light lagi best kot... haha :P

there, i met with ibu's colleagues.. they are friendly close to one another.. thebrought their family too.. included  the children.. hee... i hold the baby gurl, aina, uncle lan's youngest child and also maliha, kak jue's first daughter.. i felt so honored because the aina and maliha didn't cry when i hold them but they cried for their moms when the others tried to hold them.. hehe.. sumer kwn ibu ckp, dorg ske nadia je pegang... haha... 
best sgt... pantang ak dapat pegang baby mst nk snap picture... so i want to upload them too... :P


~ me wit aina ~

~wit maliha~

kay la.. think wanna end here for this post... penat daaaaaa... hehe... :P

bey.... IMY ;p

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

CoOkiNg + StuDy

dua tiga ari nie, tataw npe ak sgt interested in cooking... haha :P yesterday, i had made myself, abah and angah nasi goreng pattaya!!! ~bangga~ sbb ibu ckp sedap... hehe... mane xnye, selama nie, aku selalu diejek oleh muhamad zulqarnain a.k.a adik sebagai orang yang paling x pandai masak dalam family... ye, ak ngaku.. mmg xreti masak.. tp ak try what... adik ckp lau kakyong masak, lmbt lg ley mkn, n tataw la mskn tue bley mkn ke x... kcian aku kn dikenakan sebegitu rupa... sedar xsedar da byk gak la mskn yg ak try... hehe..

1. nasi goreng cina
2. ayam masak halia
3. bawal sweet n sour
4. telur sweet n sour
5. dorayaki kacang merah
6. kek coklat kukus ( dibantu oleh ibu :P)
7. nasi goreng pattaya
8. mashed potato and gravy
9. coleslaw
10. puding roti bakar
11. makaroni bakar
12. spageti bolognaise
13. lasagna
14. sup sayur campur
15. sambal bilis tempe

byk guk kn ak da msk??? xcye plak... hee... xpe nadia.. "USAHA TANGGA KEJAYAAN". perkara ini akan sentiasa tersemat dalam mindaku dan akan sentiasa dipraktikkan dalam hidupku.. InsyaALLAH... "PRACTICE MAKES PERFECT" is also another quote that matches me in this cooking field. tp yang pasti ak mmg xske masak.. leceh~ tp bler masak dengan kwn2, family or people yg kter syg, tu adalah satu cara nk rapatkan hubungan dan tambah kasih syg... how i miss my old friends so much... don't get to see them so often nowadays... everybody is so busy with study.. me too... hope that we'll have the chance to meet soon... 

holiday is going to end very soon.. i don't want to go back to college yet.... i'm still not ready to be in the hectic life again... not in the nearest time... huhu... my physics isn't finished yet.. so do my chemistry.. my math?? haven't touched at all.. biology? kind of okay.. at least, i managed to read a chapter... haha... terok btol perangai... yahh!! i need a catalyst.. to give me alternative path for the reaction to occur.. with lower activation energy... i need the work to be done... to increase the power of my mind and the heart..  i need the cardioacceleratory center to be stimulated.. to increase my blood pressure... the action potential needs to be boosted... the ventricle should pumped at higher rate same as the atria... my mind needs sufficient oxygen... words in it need to be integrated to its original one... no more differentiation should occur to my life.. hate to be manipulated around... i'm not a variable okay???  should i move with the constant velocity or need to have acceleration? but to induce greater force, need to accelerate right? okay. i'll do it! 

I HAVE TO! I NEED TO! motivation.. that's the one.. not the words that can break other's spirits.. motivation... that's the thing i require...

i had successfully made my family four sets of kfc's snack plate... home-made.. :P proud to announce it to everyone... next post i'll upload the pictures... hehe..

i think that's all my words for today... pen-off now... bubbye!!







Monday, March 22, 2010

2nd unForgeTtable day


ryte now, i'm doing four things in a tyme... hehe.. mst ad org marah.. :P i'm online, watching television, eating and  revising Physics: deformation of solids.. waa!!! cutiku sudah hampir berakhir... tinggal berapa ari saja lagi... tamaw!! taknak pulang ke tempat itu... ak maseh belum puas berada di rumah.. maw lama lagik... waa!! depressed arr cmnie... :-( study xabis agi... lagi 2 mgu lebey da nk trial.. argh!!
stop la mood cmnie...please....

okay.. back to story... the second day in MiCET was 6th March... hari ini start pada tengah malam... rsenye mlm nie la ak dijamu ngan bubur masakan ila, annie... mama annie n mama ila... bak kata aisyah.. nie mamaS dorg... mula2 tue, siyezly kagum gler ngan kepakaran dan kekreatifan dorg masak... bubur nasi.. hidangan sampingan ktorg, chicken cream soup and chicken curry... superb arr~ walaupun cara masakan simple, i admit that those dishes were really appetizing for that simple looks they posses... xtipu langsung okay! da la mlm tu, ak baru lps makan ngan prince kesayangan... haha... ditambah pulak ngan jamuan tu... memang sure ak sangat kenyang malam tu... ^^ ila arr pakse... hehe...

before tdow that nyte, bey mcg ckp nk bfast sme2 pagi tu...~wee~ heppy~ windu bey! ;p... bey ngan dota lagi tyme tue... jeles tol ngan dota nie... aiyya... xkeysahla... pape pon, i love you, dear.. hee... paginya, ak bangun awal la jgk... after solat subuh tue, golek2 la sebelah ila yang smbg tidow blek... ak mulanye xnk smbg tdow sbb kn ad bfast date... tp, lastly, mataku terpejam jua... sedar2 da pkul 9 lebey... huhu... bey rupa2nye da mandi awal... sowie bey... xdpt nk breakfast tyme tue.. ak twun cafe tyme tue da pkul 10 kot.. mknn da xde... turun2 cafe, breakfats ngan borak2 je... tp xpela.. kenyang tengok muka nazmi~ bley ke ckp cmni??~ ;p

~from left: ila, aisya, annie, mudd and alma~

after dat, out with ila bubu to rumah cgu rozila... BUBU??? ila fhm mknanye....kn?? ila sewa kereta dari makcik kereta sewa jauh... kt jalan kebaya, paya ap ntah.. lpe lak.. tapi ari nie mmg xley dilupakn...ari yang sangat mendebarkan... menggerunkan pon ada kot... otw balik nak anto tiga lagi kwn ktorg yang ekut, iaitu hafiy, ezart and amin ke stesen bus alor gajah, di satu simpang yang sangat lengang, ketika ila mahu membelok ke kiri, tetiba je ad satu kereta menyelit dari tepi sebelah kiri yang telah mengakibatkan bhgn hadapan tepi sblh passenger bumped with the **** car's bumper... it's damn shocking me and frenz... we were really frightened.. ktorg xbrhenti wlpn kereta tersebut berhenti.. takut la seyh... cuba korang bayangkan, kalau lah ktorg stop, ktorg da la sumer below 20... pemegang lesen P..( ila lg la cuak.. sbb dia yg memandu... lau ak pown, mst menanges dah!! ) ttbe uncle tue attack ktorg and salahkan ktorg cmne??? lesen P kne jge btol2 weyh.. ssh dpt dowh.. lg stu, nie ila py ketakutan.. lau uncle tue ttbe bwk kuar parang serang ktorg cmne?? ila fikir nie sbb kwsn tue lengang... mmg jd trauma ila n aku... the car's dented.. ila kne byr rm50.. ila sory ye.. xsmpt nk kc dwet kt ko guk... :( >kesedihan sbb pixs xamik ngan ila<



otw blik ke MiCET, fon ku da kehabisan nyawanye... ila mintak tolong tanyakn nazmi sal kemek tue... kne la gne fon ila... kctw yg invove in small accident and need his  help.. i'm really sorry for making you worried dear.. no intention to do that... and thanks soo much dear for helping us.. kcian ur hands.. mst penat sental kesan2 tue kn??? thank you so much... then, mlm tu, ak, nazmi and ila kuar jln2 dgn satu matlamat yang harus dicapai: kek aisyah! (xpe da kn??:P) di ITALY bakery... kali nie, nazmi yang drive... ila jd penumpang di belakang... thanx a lot to ila yg sje meng'invi'kan diri konon-kononnye maw bagi can kepadaku and nazmi to chat but her effort was really worthless sbb kami berdua tidak mampu berborak-borak sepertimana yang dihajatkan... maw masa itu berulang lagi... huhu...

bey telah menggunakan naluri pemandunye untuk ke bakery ITALY tersebut.. GPS ila memberi route ke ITALY yg terletak di melaka.. di bakery trsbut, ila decided to buy the cheese with chocolate cake... ap ea nme dia??? tp sedap kn aisyah??? hehe... dan nazmi telah membeli salah satu produk yang dijual di bakery tersebut iaitu biskut aiskrim.. korg taw x??? biskut yang ada krim yg cm aiskrim kt ats dia tue.. sedap!! biskut favorite time kanak2 kter kn bey?? ;p... dan ak plak beli balloons for Dikir Barat deco... sherah, di sinilah balloons tu berasal... :) after that, ktorg gi makan kt Dataran Pahlawan pye foodcourt.. ila ngan sizzling kuey tiaw, ak ngan nasi claypot and bey with his sizzling mee... ila begitu concentrate ngan kuey tiaw nye.. haha...tyme nie pon ila senyap.. (ILA!!! nk picture tyme nie).... huhu... then, ktorg balik anta kereta sewa tue kt umah makcik tue.. then, makcik tu yg anta kami balik ke MiCET with a ride in her Persona... :P

~nie la kek for aisyah~^^

bey.. i trust ur drivers' intuition... <3


then, smpyla kami ke MiCET... dlm kereta tu, ila duk kat seat dpn... ngada2 btol.. haha... da sampai tu, apa lagi, bilik la destinasi.. penat kot... before balik ke bilik c009 or ila's room, ak wish gudnyte kat prince.. yg beshnye, bey letak topi  atas kepala gue... ( SIME DARBY- topi rumah merah yg ak cilok kt tgb aritu :->).. topi tu bey pakai sbb ak xckup tgn nk bwk brg dri kereta sewa tue... kn bey??? mlm tu, kat bilik pon ak still pkei topi tu... haha.. cam orang giler je... ;p...

panjangnye entry nie... sorry lau korg boring.. tp ak nk tulis guk sbb ak rse nk cter... <3t; think that's all.. wanna off da... miss you friends...

nazmi??
rse2>> syg + windu


Thursday, March 18, 2010

StoRy for 1st Day..

da lme rsenye ak xpost entry... nk kata busy, mmgla... tp xpost bkn sbb bz.. it's all about my unstable emotion lately... haha... penat seyh ade emosi yang tak tentu arah nie... poning eden.. siyez!! ak pown baru je sembuh dari ketidaksihatan yang berlaku kepada diriku atas sebab kesalahanku sendiri... ~padan muka~ kesnye: ak makan udang... BANYAK!! (nada bangsawan, hehe) apa lagi... antibodiku mula la bertindak ke atas pembawa alergi tersebut... haha.. demam.. badan ak da merah2... hehe.. lantakla... lepas hajat ak makan udang... yg jadi teruk sgt sebab udang tu udang ternak dlm kolam.. biasanye aku makan udang putih atau udang laut.. yg tu kurang skit kesan dia... tp nk bwat cmne, nk mkn sgt... :P

feeling like to write about my days in MiCET, Melaka... it was a short weekend for me.. because i do want it again... last entry, i had told about my decision to MiCET was made on that day... ~crazy?~

after class on that 5th March,
-last class was physics class... went to lunch... at the DH, i decided not to go... back in chalet, in my room, landing on my bed full with books and papers, thinking again... took handphone and texted bey.. asking... then i told him i'm going.??? haha... me too dont believe it'll happen...

- pack things then called pakcik rusli whether he'll be able to fetch me at KY to KTM Tg Malim or not.. then, he said ok.. at that moment, nothing else were in my mind except my route going there.. it's my 1st... could i do it???

-bought KTM's ticket to Seremban... in train, my feelings were mixed up..

fear+missing+worry+excited= hard-to-describe

lucky for me to have friends that help when i need them... thanks to ifa, sherah, dalila so much... you guys had helped me a lot to cope with the journey..

~ in train~ ^^

- BEY... thanks to them too... coz, witot them, i don't think i'll be able to meet you.. :)

- smpy Seremban, i took the bus to Tampin.. dlm bus tu, i was messaging sherah.. sherah, thanks for you accompany... konon nk panjat kidnap beybey ea??? haha.. :P prince plak ngada2 btol ckp yg dia mgkn lmbt lar... sedey je... xabis2 nk ty ktne... love bey..

- akhirnya smpy di Tampin dlm pkul 8 lebey dkt pkul 9 mlm... mcg bey ckp yg da smpy.. dia ckp okey otw.. but xsmpy 1minit kt ctu, ak maen pusing2 dikejutkan ngan kemunculan someone who i missed so much, MUHAMAD NAZMI... it was a really pleasant surprise my love.. tq..
( nseb baek org xde heart disease, lau x for sure tamat kt ctue, heart attack la.. )

- then ktorg g mkn kt KFC Tampin. di sinilah ktorg berdua berkomplot mengenakan ila n rakan2.. haha.. mkn snack plate tp bey mkn 3 ketul ayam disebabkan ak xabis.. mkn satu je... thanx bey tolong mintakkan tomato sauce from bro tue.. cyap bkak yang baru kot... cweetnye kt cnie bler bey ngan tak malunye mnx kakak kfc snap pix ktorg berdua.. haha :P

~nie la pix tue~
( nazmi nmpk cm angel kn?? me: x... huhu)

- after that, the journey to MiCET... dlm Citra Khairie, (appreciation to mr.khairie) i made a call to Noora Syamilla using bey's phone... waiting for her voice answering the call then i shouted her name... ila py la marah kn??? tol x ila??? hehe.. nazmi cakap ko nangis cam budak2... :P

-kat bilik jmpe ila after saying gudnyte face to face to bey... bey was so sweet.. hee.. love ya~

-a surprise for mudd, annie, alma and aisyah... really happy to see you guys... :)) wanna meet you all for a longer period... chatting...hehe

i think that's all for this post... the story for 6th March will be updated later... wait for that...

see you... love... :)


miss you bey.... :*



Thursday, March 11, 2010

MemoRable wEekEnd...

last weekend was the totally happiest weekend for me.. 5, 6, 7 of march 2010.. i miss those days...

started when i put my mind to go out from KYUEM for that weekend. coz it was too stressed. i can't bear to stay in KY at that tyme.. think that i 'll be nuts if i was in KY during that tyme.. btol xs sherah?? :P told my prince that i'll be going to go to micet.. but with a condition, don't tell ila that i'm coming.. hahha... sowie ea ila... sje je nk surprisekan ko... haha... ;)

my route: - taxi from KYUEM
- train from tg malim to seremban ( transit at rawang )
- bus from seremban to tampin
- ride in Citra (khairie's) with my beloved one to micet. ;p

i admitted that i was really bold to travel a long journey alone. to an unusual place for me. knowing nothing about the journey gonna be. but thinking of i'll be meeting with prince, ila, mudd, alma, annie and aisyah, i was really determined. perhaps i missed them too loadz..
especially you my love...

ryte now, feeling not in the mood to write bout the story... i'm in the wrong mood.. easily hurted and sensitive to words... t i'll wrute more abou it as he promised me to do it together...

love you BEY

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

a PiEce Of PuzZLe


today is 3rd march. yep... a week to go for the Dikir Barat and Traditional Dance. yesterday was 2nd march. it is the birthday of my two beloved person. one is my younger sister who is currently in her Form 4 in Terengganu Elite School Mak Lagam ( TESMAL )or we simply called the school M.Lagam. haha.. the other one is my buddy named Hazrina or Yana. we knew each other since we were in the Year 2. that was 12 years ago. yupp. these people who i love so much. who stand for me when i was accused, who were beside me when i need accompany, who motivate me when i was down, who are really needed by me. i love both of you. i wish that those two will be blessed by Allah wherever they are, whatever they do, for the success in the world and not to forget the 'akhirat' one.

today i feel so different. i'm not me. why? i don't know. deep inside my heart, i'm crying for a thing. i really hope for the thing to reappear in my life. please.

our time is really packed ryte now. having all the activities to be done in this two-month period. MCC: will try to boost the spirit, decorations?? yeahh,.. i'll start today.. insyaAllah
study: lots of things still need to be revised and covered up
the TRIAL = 5th april. ( about a week after the mid-term holiday)
the A.S CIE = 12th may ( about 3 weeks after the House-trip to Tioman )

last nyte, i was really sad. after i got a phone call from my mom, i received the news that my dearest brother-in-law, abg cik is currently in hospital. i was about to cry when my mom said that kakcik needs to bring back her children to their house at about 4 a.m everyday due to no guardian for those lovely kids. they need to be back at home by 6.ooam to go for the school next day. kakcik, maafkan ya sebab x mampu berada di samping kakcik sekarang nie. i wish that i can help you to take care of your children. sending them to school. even be beside you. be strong kakcik. i'll always be with you. let your feelings out kakcik. i know that all this while you are holding yourself pretending nothing happen. but when you hugged me, i could feel your heart, kakcik. i love you so much.

i love their family so much. abg cik is diagnosed to suffer the 'leukimia'. actually, we knew it before but abg cik's mother didn't give permission for abg cik to get the treatment in the government hospital. i knew she was afraid because she had lost her youngest son back years then due to brain cancer. the tumor had been removed but he still need to face the chemotherapy. she doesn't want to see her son suffers like that. she ince told me that she feels better to see her sons in front her eyes rather than to send them to face the hurting chemo. i couldn't hold my tears anymore. i love abg cik so much. i don't want to lose my dearest person anymore. Ya ALLAH.. please help abg cik and kakcik.

abg cik... please be strong.. i know you want us to be happy. i know you love us. but we really need you. myself is is still needing your guide. you had given me the right path, showing me the life. but i need you to complete my life. i can't lose a piece of puzzle. without you, i'll lose it. please.. be strong. i want you to meet someone. i want him to meet you. i love you abg cik.. you are really a brother to me. my really, strong brother.

their children are my beloved nephew and nieces. they are so lovely. i don't expect it to occur to those lovely children. rien, auntie harap rien akan tolong ma jaga adik2. auntie taw yg rien sgt sygkn ma and abah. auntie syg rien sgt. jg aisyah, ateh and deqnul ye. ya Allah.. please help these children.

~ wit them~

~wish to see them like this~


how i wish i was in terengganu. beside my kakcik. beside abg cik. beside zarrin. beside aisyah. beside anis. beside ainul. i really wish that i can be there.

guys. who read this post. please do pray for my abg cik too. please pray that he'll be safe. i really appreciate you guys.

i think that's all because this post is going to be the really emotional one. sorry frenz.

abgcik, kakcik.. please be strong, i'm with you.
love you all...

syg bey


Monday, March 1, 2010

MisSing.......

i think it's about 4 days since my latest post. i did want to write but i couldnt find the right time. lately, i admit that my mood wasn't so stable. sometimes, i felt very sad but in a blink, i could be as happy as a king. myself also didn't understand what's going on with me. haha. sounds weird right? yeahh! i know. i did feel the same too. maybe it's kind of related to the trial and A.S which is coming very soon. i'm so scared. perhaps, we can do it with great efforts and achieve it with flying colours results. i firmly hope that it'll be realized. sherah?? ryte??

i miss my mom. really miss her. wanna hug her so much at the current moment. i need her to comfort me. to pamper me. i miss her. ibu, rindu ibu sgt. how i wish that i'm with her right now. beside my dad and siblings. i miss them. i need them to be with me always. i miss the moment we were always together. having chats till midnight. snuggle together on the bed with my sisters. i miss our playful moments pampering ourselves with massages. not to forget my beloved younger brother. he won against me in the remote control car race. playing badminton together in the evening, jog at the beach. I MISS THEM!!!

bey. i really miss you too. i was very sorry to do that. i have no intention to do that at all. what i have in my mind is only i'll always love you. nonstop. can i do that??? ~^^~ beybey said that he misses you too. :) i wish that i'll be in the same place with you as mudd and fiezul do. so jealous! sorry yeah mudd and fiezul. but sy sgt jeles ngan korg! huhu :P
my only prince tu kne sengat tebuan. ciannye bey. korg x rase ke tebuan tu jeles ngan diriku. that's y dia manja2 ngan prince. so childish ryte thinking this way. haha.

just now, meeting MCC. election for the committees. actually, i don't want to hold any post but i did tell sherah that i wanna be the treasurer. it's a joke ok? haha. but finally, i am the Fundraising exco. cmne la terminat fundraise plak. haha. lau ak taw ad org laen nk, ak xkn accept kot. i absolutely hope that people with lots of posts will do their best for the jobs. sherah kne tolong saya. hahaha.. pdn muka. :P

the interhouse dikir barat and traditional dance competition is heading us very fast. bley tak lau nk lepaskn geram ckit? bley la yer. smlm, ak mmg BENGANG gler arr. geram btol. sorry to say that i was totally annoyed with people who love to give orders to people without thinking the effects to that particular person. ak ley terima la lau dorg nie beritahu awal2 swuh cari barang minggu nie jgk. ley la ak plan nk gi mane. bengang dowh. mane x nye, kctaw ak pagi smlm. pkul 10 lak tue. then ckp nk kne beli brg ari tue guk. okay la. da satu bnda yg bwat bengang. 2nd, ak kuar g tg malim ngan sherah. cari brg2. tp yg main : polystyrene boards and velvet cloth tu xde. sbbnye most shops were closed. lau kctaw awl2, ley guk ak plan gi kl ke hape ke. mmg xilang ag la. byk dosa da ak bwat dgn kutuk dorg je.. :(

malaysian studies py written project pon xsiap lg. need 20 pages. title: 1 malaysia.. korg ad idea x nk ckp sal ap lg? ak da kering-kontang da nie. ak wat kesan and konsep je. submission date: 9 march 2010. a day before Dikir Barat. hope i'll manage to do it soon. insyaAllah. quiz might be conducted during this week. plus, esok ktorg triple block 5 means that about two hours in the LT2 ( lecture hall 2) :/

i think that's all for this one. see you in the next post. soon perhaps. miss you all.

nazmi. i love you