sifat vs fitrah

sekarang, aku rasa sangat sedih. kenapa? aku pun tak tahu. kemungkinan aku tahu, tapi aku cuma nak menidakkan kemungkinan tersebut. entah. apa nak jadi, terserah. aku cuma ingin bahagia dengan hidupku sekarang. aku tak mahu orang luar merosakkan kebahagiaan keluargaku. bukan aku nak benci melayu, cuma aku benci sikap segelintir orang melayu. hasad dengki menguasai hati masing-masing. sampai sanggup mengorbankan prinsip dan pegangan agama. apalah sangat kemewahan hidup di dunia kalau diri itu sentiasa tidak berpuas hati dan dengki apabila kehidupan orang lain sedikit melebihi daripada kita. adakah kemewahan dunia itu kekal selamanya?

kerakusan manusia mencari harta meminggirkan perikemanusiaan sehinggakan darah daging sendiri pun sanggup diputusakn perhubungan, sanggup dijadikan musuh, sanggup dibuat itu ini. di manakah hati perutmu, wahai insan yang digelar MANUSIA? tidakkah kau ingat yang kita semua ini adalah cucu cicit Nabi Adam a.s? tidakkah kau ingat yang kita semua ini adalah umat Rasulullah s.a.w? adakah kau lupa yang kita semua ini adalah hamba Allah s.w.t? kalau kau ingat, tidak lupa perkara itu, manakah letaknya hati kemanusiaan dan logik akal fikiranmu yang sentiasa disanjungi itu, melupakan nurani yang dahagakan kebenaran?

sometimes, those what seems obvious, are not obvious like they seems to be.
something that is the truth is hidden beneath it.
and i pray that all of us can finally get the hidden truth..

hello.
penat sangat. kerja best. ada a new boy. a year senior than me. he's kind of cute. lolx. just joking. he's doing part time too, while waiting to start his second year in UIA Kuantan. He's doing Mathematics. Cool huh? ;)

enough the rants.
my objectives for this post is to tell that ;
-  my left leg is 'ill' ( i 'terseliuh' =forgot what in english! laugh okay? )
- i am currently happy with my life. i feel that i am surrounded with happiness. Alhamdulillah. may this will last long.
- i am purely nervous. about? you know what. ;(
- my friends who did the IB ( International Baccalaureate) succeed with flying colours. congrats you all. pray that i'll be joining you guys too. :)
- yang ni penting! i have successfully baked a cheesecake! a marvelous one. people who taste it, said that it was yummy. and friends of my younger sister asked the recipe for it. hehe. (padahal resepi internet je pon.)


tomorrow, i'll be working in the morning. alone to take care the petrol pump. he's working in the evening. bertambah penatla esok.

sayonara. :)

works.

kaki terseliuh. jalan terhincut-hincut kat workplace.
sedih. esok, ibunda saya cakap nak bawak ke tempat tukang urut.
PuhH! dah la kaki yer. baikla cepat. ;(

seronok gak kerja. walaupun baru beberapa hari kerja (4hari), rasa cam da lama je.
saya suka kerja pada syif ( betol ke eja camtu?) malam. kurang penat. hehe.
plus,  workmates pun cambest!

masa kerja, ramai yang datang i.e customers yang baru balik dari masjid.
sejuk hati saya. kan best lau saya pun boleh cam tu jugak.
lagi best kalau suami saya nanti sentiasa pergi masjid. amin.
tak nak lah yang lagha sangat.
memang impian setiap perempuan, i supposed it is, nak suami yang mampu membimbing ke arah yang lebih baik kan? mampu membantu diri untuk mengukuhkan keimanan kepada Allah s.w.t.
saya sentiasa mendoakan perkara itu.
Amin...

awak. saya harap awak semua dalam keadaan sihat tau. jangan sakit cam saya ni. TAKE CARE! sayonara.

part time + results

it has been a while since my last entry. yes, i did miss my blog but I've no idea what to type. plus, I'm currently doing part-time job at a petrol station near to my house. this is where my younger sis has been doing part-time since last three months. so, HERE I AM doing the same thing.

yes! it's hard enough to get money with your own effort but i am glad that i'm given the chance to try. at least, i'll not do nothing at home except eat,sleep,eat again, and so-on while waiting for the results.

talking about the results,
- i am totally freaking out! takut sangat2. ;(
- i always pray that we'll be joining our seniors too.
- it'll be out in middle of august. if i'm not mistaken.
- i've not yet give my e-mail to the account department. how ah?
- about the unis, i also have some confusion. what to do, how, when. and others too. who can help me?

i am sorry. my phone is not functioning well. ye la. telefon pon zaman apa da. huhu. i want to buy a phone that can only text and call. haha. not so much functions. mana tak nye, fon canggih2 sumer cpt rosak. takpe2. i revert to the original. :PP

today, my working shift is in the evening. i'll start at 3 plus pm and ends at 11 pm. :))

okay, that's all.

p/s: i've to tell you guys that i succeed in baking cake myself! and i also succeed in creating my own recipe. new ea? okay la, modified one. i am happy with it. hehe. in the process to learn being a good daughter and wife-to-be. haha :)

i want to upload a picture of doa that i snapped from a book;