Nightmare

Waking up at 9.30a.m this morning, hoping for a better day cause I have nightmares. Who loves nightmares? Everyone hates it, so am I. Crying in your sleep because of the intense fright. Who likes to be in frightened state?? Kalau ada orang cmtu, kena jumpa psychologist tu. haha.Betol tak? Korang suka ke dalam keadaan ketakutan?
 Contoh:
- korang nampak benda yang korang takut sangat?
- tetibe, korang dapat tahu kesihatan korang semakin teruk
- kononnye orang kesayangan korang hilang dalam hutan?
- korang diculik dan diugut bunuh.

Apa yang korang rasa?

Takut kan?
Boleh ke kita mimpi something sebab kita nak. Maksudnye, the dream is pre-set before the sleep. Example: nak mimpi balik Malaysia. Kita akan mimpi ke? wonders~

Mimpi tu sebenarnya apa? Macam mana mimpi boleh berlaku?

yang tertanya-tanya,

Today's and Yesterday's :)

Asalamualaikum semua.

Td, saya tengok video Ustaz Harun Din bertemu Rasulullah s.a.w. Sebak. Menitis air mata tanpa disedari. Memikirkan diri yang sangatlah tidak sempurna. Malunya di akhirat nanti. Kita selalu lupakan Rasul tapi Rasulullah sentiasa memikirkan umatnya. Di saat kewafatan Baginda, Baginda masih memikirkan umat. sungguh sayang Rasulullah kepada kita semua. Tapi apa yang kita lakukan? Kita lalai. Sesetengah manusia sanggup menolak hadis Baginda. Menolak sunnah-sunnah Rasulullah. Sedih bukan? Apa yang telah kita lakukan?

Sama-samalah kita memotivasikan diri. InsyaAllah.

Re-motivate

Salam semua.

I finished my last paper for this term. Only three papers, but the feeling is like : what???!! Sometimes, I laughed at myself. Terfikir sejenak. Aku baru belajar sedikit, baru satu bidang. Teringat ilmuwan ulung Islam. Bukan setakat satu bidang, berbidang-bidang kot diorang kuasai. Bukan hanya belajar. tapi KUASAI. So, moivate balik diri sendiri. Jangan fikir negatif. Be positive. InsyaAllah. He will help. :)

Allah tidak akan menguji kita sekiranya kita tidak mampu, bukan? Anggaplah apa-apa musibah dan dugaan yang berlaku terhadap diri ialah ujian daripadaNya.

Manusia sentiasa lupa. Insan. Tugas kita untuk mengingati dan menasihati sesama lain. Janganlah bersikap tidak matang. Hanya mengeluarkan kata-kata mengikut perasaan. Tapi sebagai manusia, kita mudah lupa. (Nasihat juga ditujukan kepada diri sendiri. kena batang hidung kot!) So, meh la kita saling menasihati ye. Tegurlah dengan cara baik. >_<

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمنِ الرَّحِيمِ

Dengan menyebut nama ALLAH Yang Maha Pemurah Lagi Maha Penyayang

وَالْعَصْرِ

(1) Demi masa.

إِنَّ الْإِنسَانَ لَفِي خُسْرٍ

(2) Sesungguhnya manusia itu benar-benar dalam kerugian.

إِلَّا الَّذِينَ آمَنُوا وَعَمِلُوا الصَّالِحَات

 وَتَوَاصَوْا بِالْحَقِّ 

وَتَوَاصَوْا بِالصَّبْرِ

(3) Kecuali orang-orang yang beriman & mengerjakan amal soleh,

dan mereka saling menasihati supaya mentaati kebenaran

serta saling menasihati supaya menetapi kesabaran.

Peace-no-war,

Seriously, man.

hi there.

Salam.

Today, I finished my Genetics paper. waaa~ (rasa cam nak bergolek kat lantai, sedih~). After the paper, I went to Newcastle town, just nearby the campus. To release the disappointment, anger, and whatever feelings I have that time, I went shopping and eating. Lols. At first, I was just thinking to be a window-shopper, BUT, lastly, I bought so, so, many things. Why does this happen? Cause My Love, Mr. Genetics, has given a very, very hard time to me. Seriouslyyyyyy, man! 


tiba-tiba teringat . Masa nak keluar dewan tadi, ramai yang mengeluh. "It was damn hard", " Seriously, it was very hard!", yang paling tak boleh blah nye, ada seorang kawan perempuan ni. Dia jerit, " It was F**KING HARD, man!". Time tu jugak, rasa nak gelak campur nak nangis. Memang susah. :-(. I have given my efforts in answering all those freaking questions and now, I just put all of my efforts to be settled by HIM. Tawakkal to Allah.


Enough of that.


I read about someone who cried because of a friend. She told in her post. She said that she was unintentionally yelled at her friend. She just raised her voice to call her friend because she needed her to do works together. She is working as a cashier, together with her friend. She needed to sum up the total sale before going back but her friend wanted to leave her doing the work alone. That's why she called her using loud voice, after calling her in an appropriate way many times. Then, back at home, she checked her phone and got a message from that friend. The friend said that, " Ko memang berlagak pandai", and others. She cried. The friend is close to her. Reading her post, I can really know that she loves that friend. I hope that she will get stronger and solve this problem. Be strong, sweetheart.


To cry because of a friend. What do you guys think?


For me, in this case, the friend should really think why that girl called her using that way. It is also your job, Not hers alone.
In general, I tell you that I have cried so many times because friends. It is because I love my friends so much. I can't afford losing my friends except those who annoy me too much. lols.

Lastly, I want to share a video about Newcastle University and the theme song for Newcastle.
Enjoy. do watch it okay! Love you!

this is my campus. :)

p/s:

a new input to me. Surah Al-Imran ayat 37:

[37]
Maka ia (Maryam yang dinazarkan oleh ibunya) diterima oleh Tuhannya dengan penerimaan yang baik, dan dibesarkannya dengan didikan yang baik, serta diserahkannya untuk dipelihara oleh Nabi Zakaria. Tiap-tiap kali Nabi Zakaria masuk untuk menemui Maryam di Mihrab, ia dapati rezeki (buah-buahanan yang luar biasa) di sisinya. Nabi Zakaria bertanya:” Wahai Maryam dari mana engkau dapati (buah-buahan) ini?” Maryam menjawab; “Ialah dari Allah, sesungguhnya Allah memberikan rezeki kepada sesiapa yang dikehendakiNya dengan tidak dikira”.

>> There's nothing impossible to Him. Bayangkan tiba-tiba kat tepi kita, ada makanan. Wah. Hebatnya Allah. SubhanAllah. Masya-Allah. There's a senior who adds another story, although Allah can easily give Maryam 'rezeki' just like that, He asked Maryam to at least to shake the date tree to make the dates fall. Think about this, He can just make the dates fall to Maryam without needing her effort.but why He asked her to do that? In my point of view, maybe Allah want to let us know, that He will give us the best when we put our efforts in. This applies to most of things in our life. Isn't it? Will we hope for miracle when we do nothing to have it? I think no one will.

That's all. See you. Insya-Allah.

love,

Going MAD!!!!!

Just want to write a short post. I have an inner-self conflict.
Seriously, to that person, stop being childish. Be mature please! Your words, every of them, are just making you look like a very immatured person!!!

Please la. Stop talking about what you want like seriously, " I don't care". It is not effective. The way you react only made you pathetic. Is it the word? huh. whatever.

You, person, will never have my sympathy anymore. You have lied to me about the truth. You told me rubbish. and, PLEASE, PLEASE stop what are you doing now. I have not said anything mean to you yet. so please, don't make me say it on your face. PLEASE STOP IT!

Personality

Salam.

Tinggal beberapa hari sahaja lagi untuk diriku menghadapi the first paper of Biochemistry. Ya Allah. Kuatkanlh diriku untuk mengharungi peperiksaan ini. Kau sihatkanlah tubuh badanku serta mindaku.

I've taken some personality tests. They can be easily found on the internet. Yes, I am a very sensitive person.
Ini rekaan semata-mata, but the answer is truth.

Kalau ada psychologist, maybe diorang akan tanya camni.

1.  Do you easily get irritated by others' words?

• Answer: Yes. (with nods)

    2.   Are you aware that your emotions can quickly change from happy to sad?

• Answer : Yes. ( with a little laugh)

    3.   Do you still remember the slightest sad memory that you experienced when you were in primary school?

• Answer : Yes, yes. ( water flooded my eyes)

   4.   Have you ever cried without a reason and you realised it?

• Answer : Yup. 

   5.   Are you crying right now?

•  Answer: No. ( but tears fall down)

   6.  Tell me. Are you thinking about your beloveds right now?

• Answer : Uhem.. 

   7.  You have lost someone whom you loved so dearly. Am I right?

• Answer: Yeah. My brother -in-law. ( i thought this pro was a psychic)

   8.  If someone yell at you with a sudden, you will shed your tears. If someone gets angry with you, you can't help yourself but crying. Correct?

• Answer: Seriously, it happened. Am I very sensitive?

Then, they will try to say like this;

- Yes, you are. 

- But you realised the problem, and that's why you are here with me.

- You want to get rid of this feeling. 

- You do not have to worry about this.

- It is because of your hormonal imbalance, and your psychology behaviour.

- I'm sorry to ask this." Did you, by chance, in the past, experience something that makes you extremely sad? I  mean a shocking moment." Again, I nodded and will start to cry. Specifically, I will weep.

mata budak ni lawa kan. biru~~~~

5 minutes later, I will regain my calmness. They will say that, I became like this is because I experienced some traumatic moments in my life. Figured it!

Walaupun these are questions from myself, I did cry while typing this post. Why did it happen? because:

I AM A VERY SENSITIVE PERSON.

I REALISED IT!

so I am sorry for who I am. Sorry guys. 

Sayonara.

Being Mature

Hye guys!

I've been reading my old posts. There were so much memories of life. There were sadness , happiness, anxiety and even anger. haha. reading them brings my life back. My soul.

These days, yes, I admitted that I get easily irritated. I am so sorry about that. I don't know why. I'm trying my best to be matured. Soon, I'll be 12 (reads from the latter one. )

Tonight, I was annoyed. By a person who is acting immaturely. haha. I really do not know how to put in words. I have just screamed my lungs out. The level that this person annoys me is too much. Let it go, dear. You do not want to hurt yourself anymore, so be obedient to the advises given to you! Understood, baby?

Baby ni pon annoyed. haha

The annoyance level yang I dapat watching Annoying Orange pon tak boleh lawan betapa annoyed nye malam tadi. so nak kasi korang sedikit annoyance by watching this vid. im sorry!

Life in Newcastle is great. So far, so good. Alhamdulillah, I'm managing myself pretty well.(at least for myself). and!!!! I'm able to cook a great feast now. I'm pretty proud of myself. Ibu said that she's proud of her daughter too, who was once, not able to cook at all. haha. Love ya, mom!

Examination is coming really fast. I am not yet finished with the stuff to be revised. *breathing hard* I'm suffocated. It's not totally about the exams, but other matters as well.

I wanna share a quote that really touch my heart. To get the meaning of it.

To truly love something, you must first give it a chance to fail. If it survives, it is going to be stronger than ever. Distance is pure proof of this, and forever we will love if we survive.

Maybe there is more hurdles and challenges other than the distance. It is somewhat we don't really sure about it. In this matter of love, I'll always pray to Him, that He will show me the right way, the right one.
Just put your love on Him. He will help. InsyaAllah. :))

missing KY. huhu

i think that's all for now. Need to shut my lappy down. see you. Good day, sweetas!

 to that someone, te echo de menos.


with lots of love,

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2011 & 2012

Asalamualaikum.

Happy New Year! Semoga this year will be a more better than the previous year. For me., the very last minutes of 2011 and the very early hours of 2012 is filled with uncertainty. Uncertainty of myself. Conflicts with other half of me. Yes, it was very shocking. Indeed, I, nearly suffer a heart broken. haha. Thanks to my sweetest friends who are willing to hear my heart out, to be with me when i need someone, Thank you so much. I love you all.

cam myself right now. ;p

This uncertainty will never get away from my memory. I know it is a burden but to not let this thing happen again, I must be aware of it. I was really disappointed and it felt like there was a very little, tiny thorn that has scratched my heart. Even it has been discarded (cam laboratory punya word, haha), there will always be a scar. It is not the matter of how big the scar is, the important fact is, it is indeed a SCAR. no matter what, its presence cannot be avoided.

tapi kalau guna bio-oil, yang iklan tu lah, dapat hilang scar ke?

I am plainly lucky that I am still chosen. I hope it is from a pure heart. Sometimes, I laughed at myself, and I asked myself, "Nadia, are you mad? Why did this happen?" Seriously, I do not know what to say to myself. I want but I can't. I just pray to The Almighty One, that He will help me to choose the right one. Thank you Allah for showing me this thing. For giving me the chance to straighten this out. For not making it to go further. I am really grateful to you. Alhamdulillah. I assume it as a sign from You. thank you.

Maybe it was just a hurdle that I have to face. An obstacle to be tested in this real thing. Like someone said, maybe it is only an escapism. Presumably, it's true. Cause I do not want to make this things more complicated. A person said to me, that yours will be much better. That yours is pure. Are they true? Only my heart knows.

In Manchester. with sis Eiza.

That is all, for now. Bye sweeties. :)