Time and New Year

hello there,

Gambar time Eid-Adha :)

Asalamualaikum. Esok, tarikh: 1 Januari 2012. Lagi satu tahun telah berlalu. Pejam celik, pejam celik. Tanpa kita sedari, tahun 2011 sudah berakhir. Sekejap je kan? Semoga tahun baru ini (masihi punya tahun), kita semua menjadi yang lebih baik. Itu tipikal punya azam baru kan? :)

Lagi dua minggu nak exam, lagi empat bulan nak cuti easter, dan lagi enam bulan nak balik Malaysia. Tapi macam-macam boleh berlaku dalam jangka masa tu kan? Hanya Allah yang tahu.

Ini azam tahun baru saya:

1. Nak jadi seorang yang lebih aktif. Aspek? Hanya Dia dan saya yang tahu. ;p

2. Nak menjadi seorang yang lebih teratur dan sistematik. Mampukah?

3. Nak ada lagi lima teddy bear. ;)

Comeyh kan??? huhu. Nak mereka~~~

4. Nak jadi seorang anak yang baik dan patuh pada cakap ibu abah. (bukan dah ke? lols)

5. Nak berubah menjadi seorang yang cool. taknak jadi 'hot' dah. haha.

and the list goes on.......

Kebelakangan ni kan, saya rindu kat mamat yang selalu gaduh ngan saya waktu sekolah rendah. Kenapa? sebab tengok filem hindi. Shah Rukh Khan. Mamat ni, dulu, punya lah minat kat SRK ni. haha. Sampai sekarang kalau tengok SRK, mesti puya lah, teringat kat mamat ni. Mamat ni nama dia, Amirul 'Aizat.

To Aizat,

Dude. Lau ko baca ni, aku nak kasi taw kat ko, yang ko ni adalah salah satu sahabat yang paling baik aku ada. Maafkan aku sebab aku pernah 'membenci' ko. 

Sejak perkenalan kita, ko sememangnye mengenali diri aku. 

Ko akan sentiasa di sisi aku walaupun aku tidak selalu berada di sisi ko. 

Maaf ye. Aku harap ko akan bahagia. Ko akan berjaya.

 You are indeed a true friend to me. 

Thank you so much.

okay, bye! 

with love,

Winter Holiday

A month holiday was too short for me. I mean, time really flies. Isn't it? Now, I must start my revision for the examination. Where is my mood? MOOD! Come back to mummy. Mummy needs you. Stop the mood for dilly-dallying! :))

By the way, I went to York. York is famous for its Designer Outlets stores (D.O for short). I spent five days and four nights, staying at seniors' house. They are so lovely! I adore them so much. Being together with them really makes me feel loved. They are so caring. Although that was my first time meeting them, you really can't tell it when you see the bond between us. I, now, am missing them. So much. About my trip to York D.O, I bought three pairs of shoes; two pairs of Clarks shoes, and one pair of Reebok running shoes. And, a pair of tracksuit. I am so happy with my purchases! Wanna see them????

Yesterday, I skype-d with my beloved family. I miss them too lots. Alang and Adik really wanted to make me jealous. They showed me all the new things that have been bought. They even showed me their bedrooms. walaweyh! I want to go home. The best thing skype-ing with them was, that I could see my dearest parents' faces. I can see Abah and Ibu. I LOVE YOU BOTH!!!

Maybe that's all. See you again. Hope so. Mwaah! xoxo
BUHHBBYYYEE!!

On boat! ;p

missing.

i looked like i am happy. yes, sometimes. but i'm faking it.
i don't want my beloveds to be worrying about me. i hate to hear sighs from my beloveds. i always wish my beloveds are happy and no worries. i wish i can lightened the burdens of my beloveds. but, sometimes, vice verse occur, isn't it?

who loves to look the people who they love sighing and complaining all the time?
who likes to be a burden?
who adores to be hated?
none of us did. Right?

i've just recovered from my fever and flu. just a little left.
i miss my mom so much. i realised that i can't meet her till next summer. how i miss her.
too lot.

ibu,

akak terlampau sayangkan ibu.

akak minta maaf ye.

akak rindu ibu sangat2.

u will be beside me whenever i need you. 

u will love me whatever i did to you.

u will never leave me. i know. 

i am sorry to hurt you, i miss you so lot.

ntah (",)

hey! i baru saja habis masak! bangga! haha. kenyang. lolx. bosan sekarang ni. masa ni je la ko boleh bosan zulaikha nadia oi! after this, kalau dah mula kelas tu, jangan harap lah ko boleh bersenang-lenang goyang kaki semua tu. haha

sebenarnya, aku kebosanan yang teramat sangat. en. froggy prince ada camping. nak calling-calling, takut ganggu. nak skyping, hampeh la kan? macam lah dia bawa segala laptop masuk hutan. apa lah ko ni nadia. apa kes kan? ;p

tomorrow, i mean, my current time, is 9.40 pm, 30 september, so TOMORROW which is 1 OCTOBER, is my dearest youngest brother's birthday.

adik, happy birthday yer! akak akan call adik lewat sikit taw, sebab takde kredit sekarang. so pagi esok, akak akan beli topup. sweet 14 my dear. grow stronger, healthier, smarter. be a good son to ibu and abah okay? you are the only son! no one else. so jangan main-main. jangan sesekali lukakan hati ibu dan abah. akak tahu adik sangat faham kan? ingat taw! nak hadiah? nanti akak bagi yer. tapi next year la ea. ;p

aku sangat sayangkan adik aku yang sorang ni. may Allah bless you always.

i think da cukup kowt. tiba-tiba rasa mengantuk. elok lah sangat, lepas makan, tidur! haha. tapi seriously, mengantuk sangat. that's all lovely, see you again. bubbye.

alone and heart

a random post to express something truly deep inside from my heart.
no second thought, just speak it out.

deep in me, i am a loner. why?
I, myself do not know.
yes, it's pathetic.

from me to you,
i want you to be happy,
to know yourselves,
to feel full. not empty.

being lonely made me to start wondering,
to wonder far away,
some of my dearests have left me,
wondering when will i join them,
in what situation,
only He know.

alone in my little space,
triggers me that there are still people who loves me,
waiting for me, wanting to see me,
can i still meet them?

alone in this way,
just made me to re-read all sms in my phone,
i still have elder sisters those love me,
wanting me to be healthy, happy,
and with no worries.

being lonely,
i realise that i still have my family,
abah and ibu,
whose love are infinite for me,
no boundaries,
even if i've hurted them,
they love me.

while being alone,
a glimpse on photo frames on this desk,
searching for the warmth in the eyes,
to accompany me in this coldness.

being alone, yes, sometimes made us alive. to keep motivating ourselves. to remind us what we have lost and what we still posses. appreciate what you have.

dear abg cik, 
ya sangat rindukan abg cik. during my departure dat day, i thought of you. if you are still with us, you will come to see me, aren't you? i am sorry for not being able to see you at your last moment. we miss you.

Induction Programme

hari ni, hari kedua pergi induction programme.
waa!!! i'm alone. what i mean is in my course, i'm pretty sure that i'm the only malaysian.
susahla nak chit chat. huhu.
my current course is biomedical sciences with business.

baru sat td check e-mail from uni,
ada lah e-mail related to my programme.
lau tak silap, ada 5 orang je in  my course.
biomedical sciences ramai la, tapi with business, only 5!

doakan saya boleh cope yer!
amin. insyaAllah, nadia boleh!

teringat lirik lagu,
"jika kau fikirkan kau boleh, kau menghampiri kejayaan"
"jika kau fikirkan ragu-ragu, usahamu tidak menentu"

SO, FIKIRKAN KAU BOLEH! 

take care!