Being Mature

Hye guys!

I've been reading my old posts. There were so much memories of life. There were sadness , happiness, anxiety and even anger. haha. reading them brings my life back. My soul.

These days, yes, I admitted that I get easily irritated. I am so sorry about that. I don't know why. I'm trying my best to be matured. Soon, I'll be 12 (reads from the latter one. )

Tonight, I was annoyed. By a person who is acting immaturely. haha. I really do not know how to put in words. I have just screamed my lungs out. The level that this person annoys me is too much. Let it go, dear. You do not want to hurt yourself anymore, so be obedient to the advises given to you! Understood, baby?

Baby ni pon annoyed. haha

The annoyance level yang I dapat watching Annoying Orange pon tak boleh lawan betapa annoyed nye malam tadi. so nak kasi korang sedikit annoyance by watching this vid. im sorry!

Life in Newcastle is great. So far, so good. Alhamdulillah, I'm managing myself pretty well.(at least for myself). and!!!! I'm able to cook a great feast now. I'm pretty proud of myself. Ibu said that she's proud of her daughter too, who was once, not able to cook at all. haha. Love ya, mom!

Examination is coming really fast. I am not yet finished with the stuff to be revised. *breathing hard* I'm suffocated. It's not totally about the exams, but other matters as well.

I wanna share a quote that really touch my heart. To get the meaning of it.

To truly love something, you must first give it a chance to fail. If it survives, it is going to be stronger than ever. Distance is pure proof of this, and forever we will love if we survive.

Maybe there is more hurdles and challenges other than the distance. It is somewhat we don't really sure about it. In this matter of love, I'll always pray to Him, that He will show me the right way, the right one.
Just put your love on Him. He will help. InsyaAllah. :))

missing KY. huhu

i think that's all for now. Need to shut my lappy down. see you. Good day, sweetas!

 to that someone, te echo de menos.


with lots of love,

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2011 & 2012

Asalamualaikum.

Happy New Year! Semoga this year will be a more better than the previous year. For me., the very last minutes of 2011 and the very early hours of 2012 is filled with uncertainty. Uncertainty of myself. Conflicts with other half of me. Yes, it was very shocking. Indeed, I, nearly suffer a heart broken. haha. Thanks to my sweetest friends who are willing to hear my heart out, to be with me when i need someone, Thank you so much. I love you all.

cam myself right now. ;p

This uncertainty will never get away from my memory. I know it is a burden but to not let this thing happen again, I must be aware of it. I was really disappointed and it felt like there was a very little, tiny thorn that has scratched my heart. Even it has been discarded (cam laboratory punya word, haha), there will always be a scar. It is not the matter of how big the scar is, the important fact is, it is indeed a SCAR. no matter what, its presence cannot be avoided.

tapi kalau guna bio-oil, yang iklan tu lah, dapat hilang scar ke?

I am plainly lucky that I am still chosen. I hope it is from a pure heart. Sometimes, I laughed at myself, and I asked myself, "Nadia, are you mad? Why did this happen?" Seriously, I do not know what to say to myself. I want but I can't. I just pray to The Almighty One, that He will help me to choose the right one. Thank you Allah for showing me this thing. For giving me the chance to straighten this out. For not making it to go further. I am really grateful to you. Alhamdulillah. I assume it as a sign from You. thank you.

Maybe it was just a hurdle that I have to face. An obstacle to be tested in this real thing. Like someone said, maybe it is only an escapism. Presumably, it's true. Cause I do not want to make this things more complicated. A person said to me, that yours will be much better. That yours is pure. Are they true? Only my heart knows.

In Manchester. with sis Eiza.

That is all, for now. Bye sweeties. :)

Time and New Year

hello there,

Gambar time Eid-Adha :)

Asalamualaikum. Esok, tarikh: 1 Januari 2012. Lagi satu tahun telah berlalu. Pejam celik, pejam celik. Tanpa kita sedari, tahun 2011 sudah berakhir. Sekejap je kan? Semoga tahun baru ini (masihi punya tahun), kita semua menjadi yang lebih baik. Itu tipikal punya azam baru kan? :)

Lagi dua minggu nak exam, lagi empat bulan nak cuti easter, dan lagi enam bulan nak balik Malaysia. Tapi macam-macam boleh berlaku dalam jangka masa tu kan? Hanya Allah yang tahu.

Ini azam tahun baru saya:

1. Nak jadi seorang yang lebih aktif. Aspek? Hanya Dia dan saya yang tahu. ;p

2. Nak menjadi seorang yang lebih teratur dan sistematik. Mampukah?

3. Nak ada lagi lima teddy bear. ;)

Comeyh kan??? huhu. Nak mereka~~~

4. Nak jadi seorang anak yang baik dan patuh pada cakap ibu abah. (bukan dah ke? lols)

5. Nak berubah menjadi seorang yang cool. taknak jadi 'hot' dah. haha.

and the list goes on.......

Kebelakangan ni kan, saya rindu kat mamat yang selalu gaduh ngan saya waktu sekolah rendah. Kenapa? sebab tengok filem hindi. Shah Rukh Khan. Mamat ni, dulu, punya lah minat kat SRK ni. haha. Sampai sekarang kalau tengok SRK, mesti puya lah, teringat kat mamat ni. Mamat ni nama dia, Amirul 'Aizat.

To Aizat,

Dude. Lau ko baca ni, aku nak kasi taw kat ko, yang ko ni adalah salah satu sahabat yang paling baik aku ada. Maafkan aku sebab aku pernah 'membenci' ko. 

Sejak perkenalan kita, ko sememangnye mengenali diri aku. 

Ko akan sentiasa di sisi aku walaupun aku tidak selalu berada di sisi ko. 

Maaf ye. Aku harap ko akan bahagia. Ko akan berjaya.

 You are indeed a true friend to me. 

Thank you so much.

okay, bye! 

with love,

Winter Holiday

A month holiday was too short for me. I mean, time really flies. Isn't it? Now, I must start my revision for the examination. Where is my mood? MOOD! Come back to mummy. Mummy needs you. Stop the mood for dilly-dallying! :))

By the way, I went to York. York is famous for its Designer Outlets stores (D.O for short). I spent five days and four nights, staying at seniors' house. They are so lovely! I adore them so much. Being together with them really makes me feel loved. They are so caring. Although that was my first time meeting them, you really can't tell it when you see the bond between us. I, now, am missing them. So much. About my trip to York D.O, I bought three pairs of shoes; two pairs of Clarks shoes, and one pair of Reebok running shoes. And, a pair of tracksuit. I am so happy with my purchases! Wanna see them????

Yesterday, I skype-d with my beloved family. I miss them too lots. Alang and Adik really wanted to make me jealous. They showed me all the new things that have been bought. They even showed me their bedrooms. walaweyh! I want to go home. The best thing skype-ing with them was, that I could see my dearest parents' faces. I can see Abah and Ibu. I LOVE YOU BOTH!!!

Maybe that's all. See you again. Hope so. Mwaah! xoxo
BUHHBBYYYEE!!

On boat! ;p

missing.

i looked like i am happy. yes, sometimes. but i'm faking it.
i don't want my beloveds to be worrying about me. i hate to hear sighs from my beloveds. i always wish my beloveds are happy and no worries. i wish i can lightened the burdens of my beloveds. but, sometimes, vice verse occur, isn't it?

who loves to look the people who they love sighing and complaining all the time?
who likes to be a burden?
who adores to be hated?
none of us did. Right?

i've just recovered from my fever and flu. just a little left.
i miss my mom so much. i realised that i can't meet her till next summer. how i miss her.
too lot.

ibu,

akak terlampau sayangkan ibu.

akak minta maaf ye.

akak rindu ibu sangat2.

u will be beside me whenever i need you. 

u will love me whatever i did to you.

u will never leave me. i know. 

i am sorry to hurt you, i miss you so lot.

ntah (",)

hey! i baru saja habis masak! bangga! haha. kenyang. lolx. bosan sekarang ni. masa ni je la ko boleh bosan zulaikha nadia oi! after this, kalau dah mula kelas tu, jangan harap lah ko boleh bersenang-lenang goyang kaki semua tu. haha

sebenarnya, aku kebosanan yang teramat sangat. en. froggy prince ada camping. nak calling-calling, takut ganggu. nak skyping, hampeh la kan? macam lah dia bawa segala laptop masuk hutan. apa lah ko ni nadia. apa kes kan? ;p

tomorrow, i mean, my current time, is 9.40 pm, 30 september, so TOMORROW which is 1 OCTOBER, is my dearest youngest brother's birthday.

adik, happy birthday yer! akak akan call adik lewat sikit taw, sebab takde kredit sekarang. so pagi esok, akak akan beli topup. sweet 14 my dear. grow stronger, healthier, smarter. be a good son to ibu and abah okay? you are the only son! no one else. so jangan main-main. jangan sesekali lukakan hati ibu dan abah. akak tahu adik sangat faham kan? ingat taw! nak hadiah? nanti akak bagi yer. tapi next year la ea. ;p

aku sangat sayangkan adik aku yang sorang ni. may Allah bless you always.

i think da cukup kowt. tiba-tiba rasa mengantuk. elok lah sangat, lepas makan, tidur! haha. tapi seriously, mengantuk sangat. that's all lovely, see you again. bubbye.