This is a blog that i use to say my thoughts and what happens in my life. only my words. :)
Thursday, February 25, 2010
reAlisEd...
Monday, February 22, 2010
The PosTpoNed piCturEs
weak.
today, i felt so weak. felt helpless. my heart cried in its own rhythm. i don't know what it's for. but i admit i feel so sad and lonely. i felt so rejected. (xde kaitan ngan my love) perhaps it's nothing. just my own bad intuition. i supposed it to be like that. i don't want to be rejected. just my own feeling. there's nothing that can prove i was rejected. so NADIA don't be prejudice. strive for the infinite excellence. yeah!! come on dear. i need you! <3
sherah isn't feeling well. do have rest okay. you will need to be really fit this sem. you can do it friend. just call me if you need help. i'm just in the next room. :P
another thing to worry about. my COUGH ! it is not getting better. what things that i can do to reduce it. it's really disturbing. i can't sleep very well due to this. this cough really like to play with me. i haven't drink ice for weeks. i did consume the lozenges. but why this cough doesn't go away from me??? did it really love my throat? no way! please, cough. :(
just came back from MCC meeting. discussed about the coming
Inter-House Dikir Barat and Traditional Dance Competition.
and sad to say, Mdm Halijah didn't allow the members to be involved in the Houses' team.
i want to dance. i miss dancing so much.
absolutely missing it. nk masuk dance!! huhu.
last i was on the stage for the traditional dance in Form 3 in Kuala Krai MJSC.
in TGB, the girls wouldn't have the opportunity to involve in the performance either dancing or singing; if not, there will be huge CONTROVERSY.
i am still a dance lover. perhaps i'll be in it again in the future. oh, dance.. how i miss you.
tomorrow, my class will start at 9. this means that i'll be able to sleep for longer time. :P back to academic things, i felt horrible when i did my organic chemistry test yesterday. i didn't understand what the questions want. i bet my marks will be a nightmare too. :P this will not last longer. i'll try my very best to overcome this, teacher. pray for me okay. :)
almost forgotten! i had not uploaded the pictures when i went for the bowling that day. ain and najwa said they are addicted to the bowling too. 'kinna'. so eager to go there again and want to challenge that group! wait for us, guys. you'll see these cute girls winning against you all. HAHAHAHA~evil laugh~ ^^
ILY nazmi
miss you ibu
love abah
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Love
is something abstract. subjective. infinite.
But for sure, it does exist... LOVE = sayang, ryte? but what does the word
cinta= LOVE? because films always have the , " saya cintakan awak = i love you."
so does it mean LOVE = cinta?
if sayang, i do know how did it feels. for cinta, i always wonder about it, thinking is it only a word to replace sayang or it carry something specific meaning. ~*_*~
Don't know why right now i'm feeling to write about this word. Someone once asked me what did i think about the word CINTA. and i absolutely have no idea to talk about this word. but then, i agreed with that beloved person that SAYANG is far much better word to express the feeling. and saya sgt SAYANG akan awak. :) sincere from my heart. <3
today, i let my mind to think about so many thing that might happen in the future. i keep it to be insane as there are so many things those are still not sure. AS examination, predicted grades, conditional offers, A2 examination, and university placements. these are sure to happen but my place is not sure yet. it's really making me shivered. (".) i don't want to be negative in thinking but i felt that way! and i don't want to be that way. right now,
i badly need friends.
i need you guys to accompany me.
i need supports.
i need motivation to keep me in tracks.
i need to be in the right path. i need to be in phase with others.
without friendship, there's no love.
he's my truly best friend.
he's my brother.
what is it actually? it's different for each person. but there's a similarity all of us have about love. love is connecting people.yes, it is. connecting the world. the same goes to ISLAM. we are connected to each other. even though we are from different countries, different races yet we are relatives. thinking again about this, something big is currently happening in our world. our relatives are in trouble. they are helpless. i do respect to those who are so brave sacrificing themselves to bring up the truth. Masya-Allah. they posses the JIHAD. how i wish that i have the spirit too.
i think that's all for now. i hope that we are heading the right way. Insya-Allah. amin.
Saturday, February 20, 2010
BowLiNg NyTE...
through out the time at the bowling place, some sweet memorable moments popped out in my mind... i think i might be smiling all the time there... look like an insane?? hahaha... :P mesti la tersenyum mengimbau masa yang lalu... going to bowling place with prince but i've no idea at all how to play it! haha... finally, prince yg maen for both players( me and himself) for two games... pity prince.. sory dear.. ;p
[pictures will be uploaded in other post, (^.^)]
cter sal smlm kat bowling 'centre' tu... our group consisted of Najwa, Ain, Dya(me), Sherah, Pika and Ummu... and all of us mmg xreti maen... haha... group yg menang tu plak, tutees Mr B.. they are Acap, Ames, Harinn, Harris and Azman.. dorg da la terror maen.. beza gler arr ngan group ktorg... tp yg penting teamwork!! kn??? bak kata wonderpet,
mula2 maen bowling smlm, mmg langsung xde smgt arr.. da la ngan ibu jariku yg sakit... still biru disebabkan volleyball yg juga ak tidak pakar dalam permainan ini... haha... tp after start maen, rasa cm xley berhenti plak.. kuang3x... game 1st ktorg 2nd last... game 2nd ktorg last.. hahha... but never mind... it's an amazing experience... and i wish i can play it again in the future... wanna improve myself in this bowling.. hehe
after tu, ktorg gi mkn... lapar gler tyme tue... byg arr, mkn dlm pkul 9 kot... biasanye ktorg dinner pkul 7 lebey... padahal dua jam je pon beza... tp ntah mengapa perutku asyik mendendangkan pelbagai irama meminta ia diisi... haha... tetapi penantianku sgt berbaloi... hal ini disebabkan Mr B belanja ktorg... seriously sgt la kenyang... ALHAMDULILLAH.. :)
that trip was really fun but my mood was spoiled by ' a creature'... it isnt that i hate him but he is really getting me irritated... what's the problem with him??? i didnt do anything wrong towards you, okay... so please dont be a bothersome to me... let me live in peace... please...
Last but not least, as my other posts, the ending must be related to my love, ryte?? hehe... sorry to this blog readers, but i love you all too.. ;)
Friday, February 19, 2010
RaNdOm StoRies...
i have so many things to share with you all.. but the college connection here is very jealous towards me.. haha.. :P so i decided to use my broadband even its connection is very 'fast' like a snail... but i do feel so grateful as long as i can surf the internet... yeah, that's one point...
2nd point is:
1. Physics test - WAVES
2. Malaysian Studies quiz
3. Biology tests - TRaNSPORT IN MAMMALS n DNA ( myb )
4. Presentation Malaysian Studies - Dadah
5. Submission of individual written project - ! Malaysia
6. Decorations for InterHouse Dikir Barat + Tarian Tradisional
sgt2 cuak bler pikirkan our trial is just around the corner...
berkatilah perjuangan kami semua Ya ALLAH...
berikanlah kami kejayaan dunia dan akhirat...
amin..
3rd point:
U- Usaha
I- Ikhtiar
T- Tawakal
4th point:
INSYAALLAH... BELIEVE IN IT AND YOU WILL FIND ONE...
okay la... take care guys... i luv you all.... bubbye!
love you nazmi... sarang hae yo...
miss you ibu and abah...
Saturday, February 13, 2010
SaMaN? bDaY?
moral: PAKAI TALI PINGGANG BELAKANG ok?? :)
smlm ak agk sedey.. emo xtentu arah... byk kali guk ak bwat perangai ngan prince... sory bey... maaf taw... kcian bey... thankz for everything dear... :)
i really miss my frenz so much... huhuuhu... miss the moment that we celebrate each birthday with craziness... haha... to ila, mandi ngan jus oaty orange... haha... tade idea nk celebrate bday cmne tahun nie kt umah.. last year wat mkn2... thn nie, tataw... huuh...
bey!!! miss you!! npe fon problem???? geramnye.... huhu.. :(
cuti blek umah skjp gler... bus YT gerak kul 9 pagi ari selasa 6t bersamaan ngan 16 hb Februari 2010... cptnye masa berlalu... then, we will b e back too the hectic life in the college... full of activities, tests, TRIAL?, AS???... oh no way! too many things to be done in this very short semester.. it's weird why KY put all big events in this 2nd sem for us or the 4th sem for the seniors??? da la both of these semesters are the busiest semesters for the students!! pelik btol.....
bwatla sem 3... sem 3 py la relax..
dri tgh ari td i couldnt reach prince... so i asked ila to mcg aisyah whether she knew or not... swuh tye dia sbb taw aisyah xblik lg... nseb baek dpt contact aisyah... thankz aisyah for letting me to reach nazmi thru you.. thanx a lot... :) pkul 10 mlm nie bwu la prince naek bus... cmne la dia dlm bus t ea... take care love... ~windu~
td prince bwu kol gne public... wndunye... huhu... sekejap je... 2 minit... huhu... but i'm grateful to hear his voice... really love him... hee... ;p YA ALLAH.. selamatkan perjalanan nazmi.... :)
Thursday, February 11, 2010
is it bad for us to cry over a person who had gone?? stop about this emotional thing...
esok, ad test bio.. on transport in plant.. really glad that Bangsawan is over..i can spend my nite to do revision... hope i'll be able to do it...
tomorrow, i'll be going back to terengganu.. luckily the YT bus will fetch us here at KYUEM at 2.45pm tomorrow... :) pdn muka MUHD AZHAR BASRI a.k.a Jaha sbb ak sje2 repot kt pok li ckp jaha buli ak.. haha.. mne x nye.. ak kne wat surat, fax, poster... hahaha... sory la jaha... main2 je... hehe..
brg xpack lg... cmne nie??? ari nie cm moody gler... td my klsmet said yes with particular intonation... i said that the way she said yes reminds me of someone... then my other klsmet(guy) said like teasing," remind of someone??" i felt really annoyed... wanna cry at that time... i said to him," remind me of someone that had passed away." i hold myself from crying... ryte now, i missed him so much... that person is my late grandpa.. he was too close to me... i missed him so much.. that's why i was really annoyed when the guy said like that... i knew i was too sensitive.. sorry guys... coz i had made ur day terrible... sorry...
i think i'm going to get sick during this CNY.. really tired... i've got my flu, headache... so next in line is my fever followed by the cough or sore throat.. huhu..
lastly for this post, i wanna say HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY... and i miss u all my frenz... really miss u all...
Monday, February 8, 2010
0902 love..
PeNinG2 LalAt.. :P
cptla Bangsawan abis... huhu... ak cm nk dmm je.. huhu.. xlarat gler.. tataw la t hari Bangsawan cmner.. hrp2 jgn la ak pitam ats tue... xnk ak...
i mish u so much dear... InsyaAllah we'll be meeting soon... ;p
Friday, February 5, 2010
AbOut....
2. Actually talk to her.
3. Share secrets with her.
4. Give her 1 of your sweatshirts
5. Kiss her slowly.
Are you remembering this?
6. Hug her.
7. Hold her.
8. Laugh with her.
9. Invite her everywhere.
10. Hangout with her and your friends together.
11. Smile with her.
12. Take pictures with her.
13. Pull her onto your lap.
14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.
15. When her friends say i love her more than you, deny it. fight back and hug her tight so she can't get to her friends. it makes her feel loved.
Are you thinking of someone?
16. Always hug her and say hi whenever you see her.
17. Kiss her unexpectedly.
18. Hug her from behind around the waist.
19. Tell her she's beautiful.
20. Tell her the way you feel about her.
One last thing you need to do to show her you actually do mean it.
21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car- it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.
22. Tell her she's your everything - ONLY if you mean it.
23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her- if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESN'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT- so just hug her.
24. Make her feel loved.
25. Kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know
WE MIGHT DENY IT BUT WE ACTUALLY LIKE IT AND KINDA WANT YOU TO TICKLE US
26. DON'T lie to her
27. DON'T cheat on her!
28. Take her ANYWHERE she wants
29. Text messege or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at work {or school}, and how much you MISS her.
30. Be there for her when ever she needs you, & even when she doesn't need you, just be there so she'll know that she can ALWAYS count on you.
31. Hold her close when she's cold so she can hold YOU too.
32. When you are ALONE hold her close and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the CHEEK: (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).
34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her LIGHTLY.
35. Dont EVER tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you're mad. If shes upset, comfort her.
REMEMBER ALL THESE THINGS WHEN YOU ARE WITH HER NEXT
36. When people DISS her, stand up for her.
37. Look deep into her EYES and tell her you love her.
38. Lay down under the STARS and put her head on your chest so you can cuddle.
39. When walking next to each other grab her HAND.
40. When you hug her HOLD her in your arms as long as possible
41. Call or text her EVERY night to wish her SWEET DREAMS
42. COMFORT her when she cries and wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for LONG walks at night.
44. ALWAYS remind her how much you love her.
45. Sit on top of her and tell her how much u love her and then bend down to her face and kiss her while sitting on her.
46. Rub her back--feels good
47. Give her your coat if she's cold--thats always cute
48. Write letters on her back with your finger--feels good ;D
49. Let her sit on your lap
50. DON'T poke her hard...but if you want to mess around just do it lightly.
51. HOLD her HAND in PUBLIC.
52. Even if she looks BAD one day tell her she's BEAUTIFUL
53. Keep conversations flowing...talk about anything usually they just go along with it.
54. If their hair is in their face move it out of her face and then kiss her passionatley and gently.
55. Surprisingly sneek up on her and hug her from behind--loves it.
56. Kiss her in the rain.
57. Pick her up like in The Notebook and kiss her.
58. Slow dance with no music
59. Don't ignore her or be nerveous around her--everything is going to be okay.
60. Love her, kiss her, hold her, and you'll be good to go. ;D
TuNanG?!
Thursday, February 4, 2010
BanGsaWan vs AkaDeMik???
Smlm turn for Diamond to use the Great Hall for the Bangsawan rehearsal.. after class, 4.15pm, we went straight to the New Block. All of us were required to move the props n backdrops to the Great Hall.. then, the rehearsal was done using the props... feeling kinna excited to see the real Bangsawan.. i admitted that this Bangsawan really need hardwork from all people in the house... i absolutely appreciate to those who come... thank you...
Nk taw x peranan ak ap dlm cter tue??? Hahaha... ak la dayang raja... hehe... pd awalnye ak kna jd permaisuri... tp ak xmmpu kot nk bwk watak utama.. i told the seniors bout that. N ask for their help to change me with the other seniors... bkn ap.. berat sgt responsibility tue.. da la event paling grand kolej kot.. xnk ak...penting gler Bangsawan nieyh.. xclap ak, mne2 house mng for the Bangsawan nie akan dapat HOUSE CUP!! That’s why the seniors mmg pntgkn gler2 arr bnda Bangsawan nie... kat cnie, mmg smgt rumah tue kuat gler.. ‘HOUSE-ism’ tu sgtla kuat and truly can be seen.. hahha...
Permaisuri turns to Dayang... haha
~ zunnu and me ( dayangs ;P)~
Houses available in KYUEM (ceyh ayat cm ley pilih2 house je kn?? Haha.. ak bangga ngan DIAMOND!) are :
1. Diamond The House of Courage
2. Sapphire The House of Glory
3. Garnet The House of Enthusiasm
4. Topaz The House of Rocks
Houses nie mmg kompetitif gler.. sumer bnda nk relate ngan house... plik btol... haha... yg best sal Diamond nie ktorg ske CHEERS.. ari tue nye CHEERS COMPETITION ktorg mng... yeah!!! Hahaha...
Dlm Bangsawan nie, ktorg nye duration utk lakonan is 30 minutes included for the time to organise the props and backdrops. Smlm ktorg manage to do in 35 minutes.. and 5 marks DEDUCTED for every 1 minute extra... huhu.. So lau ikut smlm nye mse ktorg da lose 25 marks... need to be more efficient.. yeayhh... guys.. we all can do it!! Hopefully we DIAMOND will win this year.. amin.. J
Bangsawan2 guk.. tp akademik xley lupa!! Mmg kne pndy manage masa dowh.. tyme to revise n do homeworks... lebey2 lagi lau ad test.. cm ak.. besok ad test bio.. on protein synthesis.. aiyya.. mlm nie ad props n backdrops lg... tataw la bler nk study..
Ttbe rse nk ckp sal bnda nie plak... ak xberapa suka la ngan org2 yg selfish gler nieyh... xturun for Bangsawan lgsg.. taw la nk study.. tp org laen pon ad byk bnda guk nk bwat... lg satu.. bkn ak nk kutuk ke ap.. tp ak ngaku ak ssh nk terima nasihat org yg xbekerjasama dlm byk bnda.. for instance, xbekerjasama dlm Bangsawan and other things.. taw la xske ngan bnda2 cmnie... tp get involve la... ak pown xske guk tp pk org laen pon byk kerja guk bkn ak sorg... xfair la lau org laen bwat kerja n the kter xbwat kn??? Lau korg kne cmtue, bengang kn?? So try to get involve.. kdg2 lau ad test tu mmg la dpt excuse... bknnye dorg nie kjm sgt xbg excuses..
Ari nie ak dpt taw berita sedey... siyez ak xsgka jd cmtue... perhaps it will be ‘repaired’..
Esok kne anta blue form to the exam dprtment.. this blue form signed by ur subjects’ teachers indicate you will be sitting for the May/ June CIE or not... so mmg important gler utk anta blue form nie...
~nie la blue form tue~ ^_^
Smlm i called my mom... and she really happy to keep me up-to-date about my dearest youngest brother... ibu cakap adik da rajin.. da pandai kemas umah.. haha...the story happened when my uncle and his family wanna visit my family last Friday.. ibu nk kemas la sikit2 kt bahagian ruang tamu tue... tp ibu bz nk msk sediakn mknn... then the hero came forward offerimg help to ibu... adikla... dia ckp cmnie, ‘ xpe2.. biar adik kemas umah.. ibu masak...” hehe.. bangga ak!! ~ttbe je~ ^^
~ alang, ibu and adik~ luv
Last but not least, i really miss
MUHAMAD NAZMI BIN AZIZAN
so much.... hee..
~ cumel kn??? ;p~
i LOVE you bey... selalu terfikir bler la i’ll see you again... huhu...
syg n windu bey!!!
Do love me always kay??? ;p
Miss n love my family too... J