CiE... and Between Choices

coming soon...

are you fully prepared, nadia?

i suggest nope.

why?

don't know.. haha

but i'll do my best revising all.. amin..

today, i feel kind off a bit down.

it's all because my IELTS band.

it's horrible. sangatlah teruk.

(tataw la YT akan warn ke x. huw)

~ must stand up again!~

my Malaysian study's quiz had been answered quite well although there were some questions that i wasn't able to answer them perfectly correct. i hope it also may gain mark. i want to reduce the must-get-score for my final. really pray that i'll be able to do it. :)

i really want to fly to UK!

i'm determined to do it.

absolutely flying with the scholarship not the loan.

that means i must achieve the flying colour results.

YT asks for 2A 1B. at least.

but most university will ask for 3As for medicine course, but 2A 1B for biomedicine.

Virologist? Cardiologist?

which one? perhaps the chosen one is the best for me. InsyaAllah.

it determines my life. thus i need to be confident in it.

right? :P

but, whatever i do, i'll do my best in it.

if it happens to you guys, you all will do the same as me right?

eternal? forever?

sherah prefer eternal.

what about you?

i hope to go to Leeds or Queen's Belfast or Southampton or Cardiff.

but they require 7.5 for each component in IELTS.

firmly pray and will put greater force and effort in it to achieve that.

Godwilling.

I miss you, my honey bear!

I LoVe You, Ibu and AbaH

Adib latest. plus2

just now, i had a conversation with one of my besties, yana. she told me about adib's condition. she said that she got the news via adib's sis.

adib has a good progress. he had hold his mom's hand and also moved his feet fingers. it's not a big movement but that little act from adib give us a fresh hope. hoping he'll be as healthy as before. amin. Allah can do what He wish to do and no one will be able to change His decision. and what He'll do is the very best for us. InsyaALLAH.

adib...

all of us are waiting for you..

you can do it friend..

You are strong, and yo can endure it.

i believe in you.

you can do it.

insyaAllah.. :)

tgl less than 2 weeks for Pure Math and Biology paper 2. and so many events are upcoming. hope that i can cope with it. i hope that i've the so-called-full-confidence to do that event. hope that the real Diamond will be back.

before that, ak xske la ngan perangai manusia yg ske sgt jeles ngan owg laen nie. bengang tol!

da pakse2 ak masuk, ak da try wat yg terbaik, then pehal ko nk wat muka ngan ak plak???

xpuas ati ckp je la.. xperlu la nk wat muka ngan ak.. ak xtolong t ko ckp belakang guk.. please la weyh.. ak xnk pon lawan ngan ko. ak cme nak bahagiakn hidup ak je. stkt yang ak taw ak xpernah susahkan idop ko! so please la... behave yourself. bknnye nk ucap terima kasih kat ak. ko wat muke lagik ad la.. ko egt ko pgg jwtn tgi, bley maen arah2 je ke? tolong la weyh.. ak xde ati la tgk perangai ko cenggitu... sory to say la..

kay la.. malas da ak nk merepek.... off dulu yer...

dear love,

aishiteru

WoRds

today, i feel something wrong with me. i don't know whether it is influenced by people surrounds me or it's just myself. i feel like to cry. even there's no reason for it. i just feel to do so. how silly i am right?

i saw fiezul's status on his facebook telling that love people who loves you.

sometimes, i do agree with the saying which goes,

" love people who loves you

is far more better to love someone who doesn't love you."

yeah. because loving person who didn't love us is very tiring.

plus it does make us feel sick at all the time.

so go, search someone who really loves you as who you are.

as it is more worth it for us to love that kind of person. >_<

(it's nothing to do with me at all, just simple thought of mind)

words.

they play a very important role in throughout the life.

they are not just on the paper. they are also in our daily communication.

with words, communication between people will be more lively.

with words also, the communication will turn horrible.

with words too, people can show their love.

with words again, the people can show their hatred or anger.

what such strong power the words have. really powerful right?

and now. i want to share my thoughts about words and written in the words.

i think that words can give so many impressions to others.

with the words we use to talk, to text or even to blog, it does matter.

this can be so much important if we face the real words.

so many harsh words are currently used in the daily conversation.

i don't know how to change it because i'm also one of those people.

and i'm not happy to admit that i'm a person who is very sensitive to the words used.

maybe with a word said, it might make me crying like a baby or

with a word too, it can make me feel so happy and loved.

one word can change the whole atmosphere.

it's my view to the WORD.

i don't know what about you guys..

but the important is we use words to make it real right?

that's all. be happy always. keep smiling everyone.

endure the whatever tests you are facing.

Allah will always be with us.

^.^

Adib..

tgl beberapa ari je lagi observation ke atas adib akan dipantau. ni dapat info dari kwn2. peluang adib untuk idop 30-70. and kalau dia idup, kemungkinan besar dia akan koma sepanjang hidup ataupun separuh koma. dia mengalami pendarahan dalam otak yang sangat teruk. yg nie sye dapat dari blog anati. dia ckp bahawa tyme dia g tengok adib, dada adib berlekuk, nmpk sgt kesengsaraan adib utk bernafas.

Ya Allah..

bantulah muhamad adib aiman...

berikanlah kekuatan kepada dirinya...

sesungguhnya hanya Kau ya Allah mampu menolong kami pada saat-saat ini.

kisahnye sangat tragis. adib tercampak dari seat dia via the front mirror. he fell onto the road with his head first. he suffered severe brain haemorrhage till dia py tempurung kepala terpaksa dibuka. akibat his brain was really swollen. even though i'm not his very close friends, i do feel the atmosphere. i can't imagine losing him. he's one of bestest friends we have. and i don't wanna lose him. neither other friends nor his beloved family.

friends... please... pray for him too... please...

adib...

please wake up..

we know that you are strong...

this is the test from Allah...

be strong... come back to us, adib...

your family and friends really need you..

do be with us adib...

~ this is adib~ pray for him...

Adib, wake up. please..

just now, my close friend called me. jimie told me that adib is currently in critical state. he told me that the doctor said that he only has about one week. onlt Allah can help him now.

adib, muhamad adib aiman is my former friend. we knew since primary school. even i'm not so close to him, we still did contact each other. he seldom came to my house during festivals. i admitted that my friends and him are very close. jimie is one of his closest friends. hanging out together. i did feel really sad about his condition. he's coma. he suffers internal bleeding. non-stop.

tolong doakan adib selamat ye.

kami masih memerlukan dia.

lebih2 lagi keluarga dia.

Sweet.

From the very Begining, the girl's family objected strongly on her dating this guy. Saying that it has got to do with family background & that the girl will have to suffer for the rest of her life if she were to be with him.

Due to family's pressure, the couple quarrel very often. Though the girl love the guy deeply, but she always ask him: "How deep is your love for me?"

As the guy is not good with his words, this often cause the girl to be very upset. With that & the family's pressure, the girl often vent her anger on him. As for him, he only endure it in silence.

After a couple of years, the guy finally graduated & decided to further his studies in overseas. Before leaving, he proposed to the girl: "I'm not very good with words. But all I know is that I love you. If you allow me, I will take care of you for the rest of my life. As for your family, I'll try my best to talk them round. Will you marry me?"

The girl agreed, & with the guy's determination, the family finally gave in & agreed to let them get married. So before he leave, they got engaged.

The girl went out to the working society, whereas the guy was overseas, continuing his studies. They sent their love through emails & phone calls. Though it's hard, but both never thought of giving up.

One day, while the girl was on her way to work, she was knocked down by a car that lost control. When she woke up, she saw her parents beside her bed. She realised that she was badly injured. Seeing her mum crying, she wanted to comfort her. But she realized that all that could come out of her mouth was just a sigh. She has lost her voice......

The doctors says that the impact on her brain has caused her to lose her voice. Listening to her parents' comfort, but with nothing coming out from her, she broke down.

During the stay in hospital, besides silence cry,.....it's still just silence cry that companied her. Upon reaching home, everything seems to be the same. Except for the ringing tone of the phone. Which pierced into her heart everytime it rang. She does not wish to let the guy know. & not wanting to be a burden to him, she wrote a letter to him saying that she does not wish to wait any longer.

With that, she sent the ring back to him. In return, the guy sent millions & millions of reply, and countless of phonecalls,.. all the girl could do, besides crying, is still crying....

The parents decided to move away, hoping that she could eventually forget everything & be happy.

With a new environment, the girl learn sign language & started a new life. Telling herself everyday that she must forget the guy. One day, her friend came & told her that he's back. She asked her friend not to let him know what happened to her. Since then, there wasn't anymore news of him.

A year has passed & her friend came with an envelope, containing an invitation card for the guy's wedding. The girl was shattered. When she open the letter, she saw her name in it instead.

When she was about to ask her friend what's going on, she saw the guy standing in front of her. He used sign language telling her "I've spent a year's time to learn sign language. Just to let you know that I've not forgotten our promise. Let me have the chance to be your voice. I Love You. With that, he slipped the ring back into her finger. The girl finally smiled.

Tetiba je malam nie bce love stories.. i'm touched by this story.. really sweet..

hope the love we have lasts forever.. Godwilling...

see you... :P

sOme storY

back from tioman.. feeling energized and refreshed. even the trip was really short, it's worth for me going there coz i'm more calm now. hope it'll last.

tioman? i left there with some memoirs. overall, i'm grateful that i went there. i enjoyed myself. hopefully it'll stain forever. feeling closer to the seniors. playing the game of 'SNAPS' together and also the really'easy', 'cheating' CONNECTION. haha.

(bet sherah still didnt get it. hehe)

kalau boleh, nk wat reunion kat cne. sherah cakpa tmpt tu sgt sesuai utk honeymoon.. the atmosphere is so romantic. i saw the sunset. lucky for me and sherah as our room has the perfect sea-view. it was absolutely breath-taking. i can't help myself taking the pictures of the sun. >_<

i hope someday, i'll go to tioman or another island etc sipadan or redang with my beloved people. really hope for that. amin..

ryte now, it is heavily raining. the striking lightning was followed by the loud thunder. trpaksa la sye makan instant noodle je. huhu.. lapor~ nak makan kat dining hall.

tingat plak omelette cheese mushroom kt tioman tue... sdp!!! t blek umah nak try wat sendiri la... hehehe.. satu aktiviti menanti.. but before that, AS! the most important one. yeah, i'll strive for it. insyaAllah.. pray for me okay? :)

next post i'll try upload the pictures in tioman...

see ya!

p/s: sherah, jgn lupakan kejadian manis tue yer.. pkul 5 pagi.. hehe :)

mr froggy,

love you

Hope

about less than hour to depart for tioman.

guessed to be arrived at mersing about 6 a.m at the jetty.

then reached TIOMAN about 9.00a.m..

hope to be away from the miseries.

want to breathe happily.

don't come to me bad memoirs.

just want the good ones.

and really hope NADIA will come as the REAL NADIA...

pray for me..

miss you all friends.. :)

FLYing.

yeah! trial da abis. tgu the real, final CIE. lagi tiga minggu...

i'm so grateful that i had already finished the trial papers. even some of them were really screwed..

haha.. so after this, need to really revise for the AS..

we're going for the house trip ryte after the maghrib prayer this evening.

tioman! here we come. (biar satu hari je pon kat sana)

saya berhasrat kat sana saya dapat menemui kembali the real nadia.

the spirit.

coz feeling helpless. really tired. so many things wanna happen at the same time.

hate it.

i feel like flying high to the sky.

together with the birds.

not thinking about the people.

playing with their mates.

free to do anything.

how i wish i'm a bird.

eager to finish the study. i want to work. i want to have my own income. i want to have the freedom to do what i want. cause:

i hate to be ordered to do what i don't like,

i hate to be told doing the thing i know,

i hate to be misunderstood,

i hate to be treated badly.

seriously, i envy my younger sister who got the offer to purchase her study in the broadcasting sector, and she's guaranteed to work with the company. jelesnye~~~~~~~~

belajar skjp je tros dpt kerja. xyah risaw da. huhu.

xpe.. mesti ada hikmahNya berada di KYUEM nie. walaupun isolated, it's not bad to be here except for the hectic academic life. but sometimes, it's fun. hoho. :D

wokeylah. chowz dlu. bye2.

p/s: sherah.. jom 'berseronok' kat tioman. :P

Basketball.

tgl lagi dua paper je... bio p1 n chem p1...

he'll have the special thing from me if and only if he'll be my husband in the future.

he'll not have the chance even to have a look at it till he'll legally declared as my husband.

he'll not know anything about it till he is my husband.

sorry to say dear, but you've to really wait to know about it.

u'll have the chance only if u're my husband.

haha.. sory post merepek. haha

sebenarnye ngah geram ngan

encik PUTERA

tue.. aiyyoo...

hehe... really miss to tengok dia main basketball..

nk tengok lagi!!

happy to see the face playing basket..

miss it so much...

i'm sorry yer...

penat kan gado ngan orang di sekeliling kite?

so tiring...

mandi xlena, tdur xkenyang, makan xbasah..

haish.. ap nak jadi la...

~sigh~

pape pon yang terjadi, yang pasti kiter harus capai matlamat kiter.

paling utama:

jadi hamba Allah yang baik. :)

insyaAllah...

till next post, sayonara!

p/s: tioman? esok? biar btol! haha

SiNceRity...

Don’t find me if it is just because i crossed your mind.

But do it if you really miss and need me.

Don’t think about me if you think that i’ll like it if you told me that.

But do think of me if you really want to do it.

Don’t appreciate me if you think i’m a doll.

But do appreciate me if i’m really a person to you.

Don’t talk to me if you are forced to do so,

but talk to me if you really want to.

Don’t promise if u don’t mean it

but promise me if you really want to realise it.

Don’t be a liar to me if you want to make me happy because it doesn’t make it real at all.

It just can make it worse.

Don’t tell me jokes if your heart doesn’t feel to do that

but do that if it really feels it.

All of these is all about sincerity.

Don’t be friends to others if you aren’t sincere of that friendship.

Don’t act like you adore people if you aren’t.

Trust ?

Please don’t hurt the feelings of people who trust you.

Because it may give you a really big problem. Once people don’t trust you anymore, it’ll never change even you sacrificed yourselves to make them trust you again. Cause it’ll never do. So please mind ourselves not to destroy people’s trust to us. I can’t imagine living in this harsh world without people trust in us. I think that’ll be my very bad life if I have no one trust in me.

Perhaps I’m not one of these people.

This post is just about my heart speaking out its feeling.

Nothing to do with people in my life. Cause i trust people in my life.

bey.. imy

Must.

salam... elooo...

~ cute kn? ~

ari nie, sbnrnye xde pape sgt. but i feel to write so here i am to do it. hehe.

napa xde mood nie?? nk study. tp moodnya xnak datang dekat. haha. perlu jugak! chemistry p2 np1 aren't finished yet, math stats, bio p2 n p1 and also physics.. so many things that i need to revise more. xley malas2. bley aje kn kter wat? kn sumer benda dikuasai fikiran ryte?? mind does rule the actions. bey sye pown da start baca 'komik' kesayangan dia. 'komik Material Balance' ^_^

so maksudnye sye pon bley jugak bce komik2 sye yg sedang menunggu kn? btol x? skrg, sye ngan bce komik Beauty Pop plus Chemistry. hehe. ptg smlm, time kelas chem ms qila ckp ktorg kne work really hard to make sure that we'll score A for the AS. thus, cuti bulan 6 t ktorg bley rileks. seronoknye pikir cuti tue. sebab kompem beg akan ringan. hehe.. xbanyak buku. . that'll give us the chance to have a very leisurely-spent holiday. hehe. waiting for that!!!

tp before tu, mesti kena struggle btol2..

IT IS A MUST!

~baby pown ley study, xkn sye xley kn?? >_< ~

really hope that i'll be offered the conditional offer from universities. suddenly, this thing about Personal Statement comes across my mind. PERSONAL STATEMENT??? any idea to do that? really need helps on it.

sye nk stop kat cnie dulu. sbb perlu revise. nk jadi ulat buku xpown KIASU. hehe. :D

bubbye.... going to miss you freny... see you soon...

mr nazmi is 'cute'. haha

dot.dot.dot.

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BENCI !

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dush! hiyyargh! dush!dush2!

~xley boxing real, nah! kt alam maya.~ haha>evil<

yay! da abis geram... penat exercise jari type geram... >__<

muahx!muahx!muahx! honey bear! ;p

beybey......<3

eAgeR..

chemistry practical was done. in the best way perhaps. even there's so many carelessly answering did, hope that it will help me to score the A for chem paper. :) don't wanna think about it anymore.  focus on the papers those are coming. tomorrow, there'll no paper but i need to revise the statistics and also chemistry. senang citer, sumer la.

tomorrow, my younger sister will have an interview with a company for a scholarship. i really hope that she'll pass it. yes! she is better in me having more confidence to face the interview. she's a good debater too. so i don't really surprised if she gets it but the one that worries me ryte now is her result. it's not bad but for her applied course, it seems to look she'll be having lot of  things to really convince the scholar.

one whole week to go for the trial papers next week. whole full week. everyday there's papers or at least a paper. and i hardly can't wait for the real CIE. it's not that i'm already fully prepared or something but i'm really eager to go home for the holiday. bringing lighter bags. i want to relax myself during that holiday. me and family. really want to reunite with my cousins and granny. we haven't seen each other for a quite long time. since last Aidiladha. want to spend a night at my Kakcik's house too. playing with nephew and nieces, and also wanna have a chat with my abg cik. he's my bro-in-law. but he's more than that. he's the one who helped me to get out from the problem when i was a kid.

really hope abg cik will get better soon.

to people who love to back-talking, please mind your own business.
(xde kaitan ngan kawan2 ak kat sini ye..)
don't love to be busybody. i don't need your annoying attention and harsh words.

all the best frenz. we can do what we wanna do. :)

only words...

lately, i started to feel something's really going on around me in the world.
i do agree with the say, " life's like a spinning wheel ". definitely agree. something's up will be down.
to be down here doesn't mean it's bad right?  maybe it's a state where we could improve ourselves.
yeah. it is. perhaps it'll be a very useful and teach us the right way.

here, i want to question out something.
this simple thing has always wander in my mind.
why did US, the human always search for others' fault?
why didn't US try to look in ourselves?
this also implies to me.
me too is doing the same thing.
i want to change it. because i think that's so not relevant to do THAT.
bey. i'm sorry okay. i love you. ;)

kenapa perlu ada sesi memandang rendah terhadap orang lain ye?
ak xfhm la.
kalau ye pun, diri tu hebat, xperlu la nak show-off.
and yang paling penting, xperlu nak pandang rendah kat orang lain as if others don't do the right thing.
maybe orang lain xsehebat diri tu, tp kita haruslah ingat, manusia ni xperfect.
kite haruslah sedar bahawa hanya ALLAH sahaja lah yg sempurna.
aku bukannya para ulama, mahupun cendekiawan dlm ilmu agama.
namun aku masih ada kewarasan akal untuk berfikir.
masih ada kata-kata yang mampu diluahkan sebagai perkongsian bersama.

i had already sit for my Pure Math trial exam. i firmly hope that i had answered it well.
even i knew that i had already made a silly mistake by wrongly multiplied 3/2 * 3 giving answer of 1/2. haha :D but it was done right? i couldn't return the time.
but the important is

DON'T DO MISTAKES THAT CAN BE AVOIDED

do not take risks that may affect your life. it's not that do not ever try out something new. you must try out because that's the only way for you to experience it. yes! absolutely yes!
tomorrow will be the chemistry practical. pray for me okay. :)

i miss you dear. really want to meet you. and you guys. my G4. my old fellas. my buddies. all of you. i really miss you all. and you all are my dear. without you all, i'm not me. i'm not myself. because all of you are the pieces of my life's jigsaw. and i need all to complete it. 

Friends,

do be together always...

syg korang semua.. :P

last but not least, i'm really sorry if there's any word that may hurt your feeling. i'm sorry cause it is just my sincere words deeply from my heart. thank you guys. till then, sayonara!

ibu n abah, i love you very much.

prince, syg awk. 

this entry should be posted last nyte. but the connection was terrible.

WiNdu

i really miss my mom..
i do want to hug her at this moment..
i do want to hear her voice comforting me..
i wanna see her so much..
i want her to be at my side..
ibu... really miss you... need you..

~ miss ibu ~

abah..
i miss you too..
i love to be at your side...
seeing the smile on your lips..
even you didn't speak too much..
 i know that you really love me..
abah.. i miss you really lots..

~ miss abah ~

i hate to be in this bad mood..
feeling sad and crying..
i love to be as happy as always..
i love you bey.. always do..
never doubt you..
trust you all the time..
miss you too...

~ miss nazmi ~

think that's all.. just wanna let it out from  my heart.. plus, my headache is back.. damn..sorry fwenz..

sOaLan?

last three days, i was not feeling very well. wanna write the post but couldn't help myself to fall asleep after consuming the pills. smlm, perasaan tu sangat membuak2 nk melepaskan kata2 yang terpendam dlam hati..

geram sangat!!! >xsuke<

bukan nak cakap apa la.. tp ak xske kalau seseorang tu hipokrit. cakap menda lain then tup2 ko wat mnda sme guk!! weyh.. jujur je la ngan diri sendiri... yg pastinye, ko sepatutnya mintak maaf ngan org yg ko kutuk tue.. mana x nye.. ko kutuk benda2 yang dia buat kononnye ko bagus sangat and xkn wat menda cmtu in the future, lastly ko bwat guk and lagi advanced dari ak kot..  yang siyez menyampahnye ko wat about three weeks lepas ko cakap mnda tue..  x malu ke jilat ludah sendiri.. nak kutuk org biar la betul.. xyah kutuk org lau ko pon sme je.. 

ibarat kejadian;

X & Y sedang bersiar-siar di taman kawasan mereka. tiba-tiba, X buang tin minuman 100Plusnye di bawah pokok ( kira merata-rata la ). Y berkata, " X, apa nie! ko buang sampah merata-rata. terok arr ko nie!! bla..bla...bla...." X terima la kata2 tujahan si Y. tp xlama lps tu, dorg ni gi makan sme2.. Y beli keropok Twisties. after abis makan, tetiba, dia buang plastik tu bwh bench yg dorg duduk tu. 

soalannye: 

1)  kalau korang jadi X, apakah tindakan korg?

2) apa yang korg rasa bler dia wat cmtu stlh ckp bnda cmtu kt korg?

setakat tu je kot entry nie.

trial is coming.

6 apr - Math (pure)

7 apr - Chem (practical)

9 apr-  Bio (practical)

12 apr - Phy (practical)

13 apr - Math ( stats )

           - chem ( p2)

14 apr - phy ( p1)

15 apr - bio ( p2)

           - phy (p2)

16 apr - bio n chem (p1)

then off to tioman.. gler depressing!! blek2 tioman, tgl bpe mgu je nk CIE ( AS) ..

p/s: pray for me... >_<

prince, <3